And I'd prefer if you dealt with me, not them. [ Still wary but in obvious control of her own emotions for the moment, Rey catches that flicker of revenge licking across their connection— not honed in on herself, in particular, but a side swapping stormtrooper. It puzzles her privately, unable to fathom why the loss of one good soldier irks him so, and she's starting to seriously consider what kind of stock Kylo Ren puts on loyalty. More than she'd initially understood. He's too easy to read and an enigma all at once and now that she's in his head and he's in hers, Rey sometimes finds it difficult not to try and parse him, even from star systems away, typically resisting the urge to feel out across their strange bond, but not always.
And so, she's quiet as he meticulously reassembles his lightsaber, careful as he puts his tools back in their proper places, his mind oddly quiet until she can feel that invisible nudge, a firm question with far less bite yet still demanding an answer. It gives her pause, blinking up at the starless ceiling above her, still jarring to wake some nights with a proper roof over her head. ]
I'm not sure. [ It doesn't bother her to admit, the voice in his mind muted and quiet, contemplative. ] You're just... here. It's easy. [ —to talk like this, a habit Rey fully realized and accepts is bother risky and dangerous, a novice brand of confidence keeping her from being too frightened by the prospect of slipping over to his side. Curiously, she shifts the very same question back to him, momentarily stunned by the broad expanse of endless space when he approaches the viewport once more. It isn't to retrieve any hidden information for the Resistance, or for his mother, but rather something she's wanted to know since this all began, a hooded, menacing terror in her vision, come to life in a shrouded wood. ]
What do you want? You don't really seem the type for galactic domination. You seem to have your own agenda. Including me in it also doesn't seem out of the question for you yet.
( That control is an advantage that he doesn't have, although he gets the distinct impression that it's something that will definitely come up during his tenuous stay on Snoke's base of operations. The whole ship is nervous. It beats like a separate, physical heart. Despite their dedication and loyalty to the Order, the troopers and even the upper-echelon figures aboard the Finalizer always get tense when they're this close to the Supreme Leader's seat, even if they are only making a drop-off, so to speak, depositing Kylo and a few other Knights on the home world so that Kylo can finish what was started. The troopers are the worst of them all, he can feel it, possibly in the wake of FN-2187's desertion, his betrayal, as if they all might be punished for his misdeeds.
He hardly concerns himself with any of it, sticking to his quarters the way he typically does on long journeys, emerging only to see that Hux hasn't ruined something else in an effort to get them all disciplined. The silence he's granted affords him time to recollect following his disasters on Starkiller and Jakku, in dealing with Rey and losing the droid, to reevaluate all of his mistakes and failures so that they do not happen again. He uses the time away from the bridge to gather to him what he might say to the Supreme Leader, what reasons he might give for the choices that he made. Hux had warned him not to let his personal interests interfere with orders, but he had, and he knows that. It's a crime that he will absolutely be punished for, even if he was attempting to kill two birds with one stone without knowing it. Retrieve the map and bring Snoke a girl with more Force-sensitivity than he had ever encountered.
He'd neglected to do both, and now he has her in his head, flitting around like a bird, keeping him awake through the night cycle and peppering him with questions, offering guidance and suggestions in mechanics. He presses his mouth into a thin line, and the door to the cabinet slams. )
My suggestion is that you find a way to make me not here, unless you're interested in what happens as a result. ( She's right, of course. Not in so many ways but in the ones that matter. His interests and Snoke's interests coincide with the First Order's in a nice way, a handshake between the two of them, but more importantly her inclusion in that reality isn't an impossibility. He knows that even as the cabinet's doors settling into the idle hold of their hinges, as the room grows quiet following the slight manifestation of his emotions. He tries to will himself into a calmer focus. It doesn't entirely work. ) You've made it abundantly clear that you aren't interested in accepting my offer to teach you. Including you seems like a moot point.
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And so, she's quiet as he meticulously reassembles his lightsaber, careful as he puts his tools back in their proper places, his mind oddly quiet until she can feel that invisible nudge, a firm question with far less bite yet still demanding an answer. It gives her pause, blinking up at the starless ceiling above her, still jarring to wake some nights with a proper roof over her head. ]
I'm not sure. [ It doesn't bother her to admit, the voice in his mind muted and quiet, contemplative. ] You're just... here. It's easy. [ —to talk like this, a habit Rey fully realized and accepts is bother risky and dangerous, a novice brand of confidence keeping her from being too frightened by the prospect of slipping over to his side. Curiously, she shifts the very same question back to him, momentarily stunned by the broad expanse of endless space when he approaches the viewport once more. It isn't to retrieve any hidden information for the Resistance, or for his mother, but rather something she's wanted to know since this all began, a hooded, menacing terror in her vision, come to life in a shrouded wood. ]
What do you want? You don't really seem the type for galactic domination. You seem to have your own agenda. Including me in it also doesn't seem out of the question for you yet.
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He hardly concerns himself with any of it, sticking to his quarters the way he typically does on long journeys, emerging only to see that Hux hasn't ruined something else in an effort to get them all disciplined. The silence he's granted affords him time to recollect following his disasters on Starkiller and Jakku, in dealing with Rey and losing the droid, to reevaluate all of his mistakes and failures so that they do not happen again. He uses the time away from the bridge to gather to him what he might say to the Supreme Leader, what reasons he might give for the choices that he made. Hux had warned him not to let his personal interests interfere with orders, but he had, and he knows that. It's a crime that he will absolutely be punished for, even if he was attempting to kill two birds with one stone without knowing it. Retrieve the map and bring Snoke a girl with more Force-sensitivity than he had ever encountered.
He'd neglected to do both, and now he has her in his head, flitting around like a bird, keeping him awake through the night cycle and peppering him with questions, offering guidance and suggestions in mechanics. He presses his mouth into a thin line, and the door to the cabinet slams. )
My suggestion is that you find a way to make me not here, unless you're interested in what happens as a result. ( She's right, of course. Not in so many ways but in the ones that matter. His interests and Snoke's interests coincide with the First Order's in a nice way, a handshake between the two of them, but more importantly her inclusion in that reality isn't an impossibility. He knows that even as the cabinet's doors settling into the idle hold of their hinges, as the room grows quiet following the slight manifestation of his emotions. He tries to will himself into a calmer focus. It doesn't entirely work. ) You've made it abundantly clear that you aren't interested in accepting my offer to teach you. Including you seems like a moot point.