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i found something in the woods somewhere.
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Before he answers, he lets his eyes linger on hers, on her face, roving over the architecture of her bone structure and the map of her expression in an effort to suss out disagreement, a building argument, the combustion of the tension that has been leaking out of every interaction - extended or otherwise - between them since Corellia. He's surprised not to find it, is equally surprised to find instead an open curiosity as to his opinion. In some ways, it feels like a test, but there's little she can do if he doesn't pass it, and for as much as their individual responses spell out more than enough about them without the burden of detail, he knows that whatever answer he gives, the solution is more complicated than a yes or no buried within an explanation.
Eventually, he turns away from her, showing her his profile as he glances again out the window, the opening of the mine edged with the long, serrated teeth of the window. Fingers curl into fists of their own accord as she hedges around questions and hesitates in her delivery. They aren't tight but the strain that it builds in the muscles that comprise his forearms feels like stretching at the start of an early morning, bone-deep and relieving. Dark eyes skim the floor, travel to her boots and up the dirty material of her pant legs to bottom out on her own eyes with his chin tipped down. A frown twitches at the corner of his mouth, and the question she poses makes a giant ball of lead gather and drop into the bottom of his stomach like a stone. It's hot with the fusing together of many different things, and it's technically the ire that wins out first, but it's correcting her that noses ahead at the end. )
There are some people in this world that you can't save, Rey. ( His tone aims for brokering no argument, steeped in greater knowledge that she can possess about the enemy - what a word - they prepare to face. Of course, labeling Ji in such terms leaves wide open the notion that he is someone who can be saved, which isn't a connotation that he wants associated with himself and the choices that he's made. It leaves a bad taste in the back of his mouth, but if he's to prove any point to her at all, he can't call it into question. ) You can try, with Ji, you can give her the option, but she'll never make the decision to walk with you the way that I did. She isn't in the dark. She doesn't fight that -
( Glass breaks in the same moment that Kylo throws his arm out, halting a red bolt of blaster fire, wide and pulsing, in the air. It hovers just inches from where they are standing, as unaware of its intended target as Kylo is. His arm shakes momentarily with the effort of containing it before another greeting of tinkering glass shatters on the opposite end of the floor they stand on, a brief pause separating that noise from an ominous hissing as the room begins to fill with smoke. He reaches out to extinguish the glowrod in the same moment that footsteps clatter on the other end of the collapsed building, and Kylo drags Rey close enough to smell the sweat on her skin as he hisses at her over the plume of white mist. ) Move.
( Ji blooms in full manifestation at the forefront of his perception - and, he knows, Rey's - and he can almost hear the melodic drawl of her accent as he lets the blaster bolt tear a hole in the floorboards. )
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Rey ducks, eyes wide with panic, but a gloved hand stops the bolt in its tracks, and she's left with the red light glowing in the reflecting gleam of her eyes as she stares up at him with an unabashed sort of wonder that hedges on horror. She's been on the other end of his telekinetic pull, the strength of his paralytic grip squeezing her while he skimmed the surface of her mind, but to see it stop blaster fire—that's something she's never seen the Force used for before.
An instant later, though, smoke pours through the room to hide the move from view, and it catches her off guard to feel Kylo grab her by the loop of fabric on her shoulder and yank her to him, bones knocking against bones as she stumbles into him. This close, she can see him through the mist, and she searches his face with an acutely desperate, scrambled look, and clasps her hand around his.
At his command, she grabs him and pulls him with her towards the window—it'll do them no good, staying in here while this mist is blocking their vision, while Ji has ambushed them despite all their efforts at planning, so that leaves one remaining option. Politics and philosophy can wait until later, but for now, they'll need to survive to discuss it. Without slowing down, Rey leaps unceremoniously through the broken window.
This is fine. ]
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Totally fine.
This, of course, means that their - his - descent is less than graceful, and when he hits the ground it's with a burst of air forced out of his lungs. His hand has slipped somewhat so that Rey's grip extends further south, along his wrist, and his own free hand manages to twist itself around her shoulder during the long moment between the semi-solid foundation of the upstairs floor and the quickly rushing sight of the ground down below. When they do hit, he feels dazed for a moment but just a moment, a bright burst of discomfort - not necessarily sharp enough to be pain, though it certainly doesn't feel good - followed by a spike in adrenaline that has him rolling over onto his stomach and pushing himself immediately to his feet.
There's a loud banging sound from inside the building they have just vacated, and Kylo reaches across the minimal distance between himself and Rey to lay the heavy weight of his hand alone the slope of her shoulder. Words flow without thought or thought of consequence, leather-bound fingers curling in the fabric of her tunic to encourage haste. )
Get away from the building. ( It's a command barked at the same time a tall, dark figure appears at the jagged hole that's left of the broken window, the crosshatching of her helmet reflecting some of the light that it catches and shining silver-lavender as Ji peers down at them. Her long, heavy cloak flaps open over the shoulders, revealing the extensiveness of her wide belt and the overlapping fabric of the tunic underneath it. Armor, like Kylo's own, ribbed and lightweight but still durable and protecting the Knight's vitality. A blaster hangs in her hands, gloved and curled around the barrel and the trigger, respectively, but it's the dull wink of an old lightsaber - too short to belong to a master or even a knight; it almost looks like a training saber, or something in between that and the finished product Rey holds - that poses the real threat. Ji might not be trained to use the Force, but her knowledge of combat means that she won't go down without a fight. FN-2187 had scored a hit on him after all, wounded already or not, and Ji is someone who knows her way better around this blade than some nameless traitor.
From up above, Ji croons: Lord Ren. What have you done?
It isn't the threat of Ji's prowess with a blade that concerns him, though, as much as the weight of the blaster that she holds in her hands. The bolt in the upstairs room had felt heavy, like a cartridge-caliber shot, and while the blaster that she carries has the potential to do real damage, especially pointed toward them as it is, Kylo can tell that it doesn't posses a firepower equivalent to what he'd held moments prior. Nor could that blast have come from the direction that Ji walked in order to bring her to the dilapidated corner she stands in now, which means - )
I was wrong. She's not alone. She brought a sniper. ( He unhooks whatever wall has existed between himself and Rey up until this point so that they might communicate in this way, while at the same time refusing to back down from the issued challenge that Ji's appearance presents. When he speaks aloud, it is directed at her. ) Where is Aurren hiding? Or is it Sariss this time?
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She staggers under Kylo's guidance, still dazed enough to be nudged along like a child in a manner she'll be furious with herself for later, but she backs up with all the urgency of someone who has not lost sight of the fact that it was desperate enough to hurl herself out a window to escape.
It could be over. If they'd already planted charges of some kind—there was bound to be something explosive in the buildings. Her fried senses have her mind wandering, scolding her for taking the time to argue philosophy and morality with him rather than prepare, but as her feet kick up dust in the hurry to back away from the administrative section of the mine, Rey tries to muster up a background plan.
Sniper. Damn the both of them. Her lightsaber's in her hands, for all the good it will do, and she lights it up in anticipation of deflecting the fire—but she's never deflected something of the caliber that Kylo's warning threatens before, and she's not wholly convinced that it isn't just as likely to damage the blade in some form of negative feedback. It only occurs to her, with the hilt of her lightsaber squarely held in both hands, that the glowrod was lost somewhere along the way, and instead, the beam of her weapon draws attention to them through the smoke and the storm of dust. ]
The mine shaft. [ Damn the dangers. The familiarity of the connection between their thoughts helps to calm the tempest rattling around in her own head, giving her an anchor to level out the daze that she'd been left in after the fall. It occurs to her, and unfortunately she realizes a half a beat later that it was left open to him as well, that she could hide him there, defend the opening to the mine, and rebuff Ji herself if she wanted to. After all, he's the one she wants, the traitor that she needs to drag back before their leader in order to win his position. ]
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She'll chase if we run. ( He says to Rey, barely a murmur over their shared connection, as if someone might hear, but his tone delivers it with the implication that this is exactly what they want, even if he doesn't rush to ignite his own saber, although he does wrap his palm around it and unclip it, ready. It's a strange, seamless exchange between the two of them. Different than it had been when he'd sensed her initially on Yaga Minor, different than it had been when he'd felt her coming for him on Corellia and every moment since. It feels like a unified front when they rally together in this way, a key sliding solidly into a lock, and Kylo has no doubt that it could be something truly amazing in its destructive prowess were they able to stop arguing for the five minutes it would take for them to learn how to use it.
Now is not the time, though, for arguing or for philosophizing about the bond between them, not with the feeling of being watched from somewhere operating as an active presence within his mind, nor with Ji raising one hand to lean against the crooked frame of the broken window and consider the both of them. Kylo wonders if she has always been so communicative through the blank screen of her helmet - and, by association, if he was as well - or if it's just a result of having known her longer than anyone else that makes her easier for him to read. Ji's hands tighten around her blaster and she refuses to answer the question he had directed at her in the interest of jutting her chin toward Rey.
Leader Snoke said she would be with you. He doesn't hold you responsible, she says, making it abundantly clear that she is no longer speaking to Kylo but to Rey instead, despite the glint of her helmet's square paneling as it angles itself in an abundantly unclear and unhelpful direction. He's quite impressed with what you've managed to accomplish. Although I'm personally not convinced. You've always been weak, Ren, since the beginning. Can't pick a side, can you?
Kylo feels a series of locks within him click open, even as he makes an active effort to keep them clasped. She's baiting him on purpose, digging in underneath muscle and blood vessels and working her way down to bone, tonguing at a cavity and gnawing at a wound that has not yet had time to close over, seal with scar tissue. Directing his ire is done with the express purpose of stopping his attention from drifting elsewhere, figuring out where it is that the other Knight is hiding, waiting to pick them off clean if they can't deflect the shot. He isn't sure that there is enough clarity in the air between the settling smoke and dust and Ji's broken tooth of a sore spot within the Force, and the bright blue of Rey's saber paints a target on their backs that they can't afford to extinguish. Time to make a choice. )
The mine shaft. ( Kylo's voice crowds into Rey's head over the sound of Ji's. He knows that Rey is ready to move, a burning sun of energy despite the mistakes that they've made, the time they've wasted. His confidence in himself bleeds into faith in her to do what it takes to ensure that they both survive. When that became a mutual benefit as opposed to a singular one, Kylo isn't sure, but in that moment he feels its twin within himself. Neither of them can fall. ) Run and don't stop until you're out of sight of the entrance. We need to know where the sniper is.
( The he thumbs his saber into life just as one of the remaining smoke bombs explodes into a haze on Ji's belt. From there, it's a dead sprint away from the administrative offices. )
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When she realizes that she's just as likely to pour the emotional energy of her own response into the bond, she stoppers the empathic connection with all her might and instead reaches out with her free hand to touch his arm, pulling him towards her. ] Don't get yourself killed. [ It's not pragmatism. She can't hide behind that mask when there's a visceral, personal concern buried in the bright reflection of her eyes; for whatever it's worth in all this, it's not a mere matter of battle strategy that wants to keep him alive.
But her choice to linger there won't benefit either of them in the long run, so Rey turns on her heels and sprints for the open mouth of the mine, a black pit swallowing the terrain around it. Her lungs and legs burn with the scrambling strength of her sprint, hurling her body towards the shaft, and as she skids to the ground right near the door, red blaster fire pings against the dust to try and cut off her path; Rey reacts quickly, rolling to the side to narrowly avoid it and kicking up dust in the process. ]
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Ji feels like the outsider, where before she was the oldest face that he knew, bridging both parts of his life in a way that not even Snoke could duplicate. A tangible, tactile thing in comparison to the untouchable, pervasive reality that represented his master. Even seeing him in person, watching him move and do something so ordinary as breathe, Snoke somehow still never seemed quite corporeal, just a shade, a husk, the ghost of something great and terrible made even more so in his own perpetual twilight.
Ji is a million miles away from reality now, the same way that Snoke had seemed even when he was the only real thing that Kylo could count on. Rey is the more grounding presence here, the new bridge built between the two rises that hedge the dark valley between worlds, even as she turns and tears off toward the mine shaft and he says nothing in response to a warning he could easy consider irrelevant. And for as far away as she is, Ji is the one who rips the hissing screen of smoke from her belt and leaps from the broken window of the equally broken building, sliding into a roll and coming up aces, a bright green blade flaring to life as she holsters the blaster she's been carrying.
It's an old saber, but she knows how to use it just as well as he knows how to use his, even if she doesn't have the benefit of being able to throw Force-based attacks behind her strikes. Her style is a blend of various forms, slipping in and out of one and into the other with a reliance that belies her inexperience with the Force but which works surprisingly well for someone so mired and talented in combat. She wastes no time in tearing after him, lashing out with a speed and strength that has more than once put him on his back. Kylo has seen her fight off more than one opponent this way without losing the spring in her step - if a heavy trod could be called that - and while he knows that he's better, he also knows that she won't pull punches. She'll try to cut him down, for her own purposes and to get to Rey.
The benefit to engaging her in combat means that wherever and whoever the sniper is, they're less likely to intervene on the off-chance that Ji is struck. Swinging his own blade in a wide arc of bright red designed to catch Ji's shorter green blade down low, Kylo considers his ability to use that possibility to his advantage, wondering how he might throw her into the line of fire if he can't make it to Rey in the mine shaft. Not knowing where, precisely, the other Knight is, their best option is to take them down one at a time, so he shoves Ji back with a heavy swing and takes off after Rey with a long, heavy stride, nearly catching up with her in the process. He's there quick enough to watch her skid to the side and go down in a cloud of dust that, for one crucial moment, makes his heart hammer hard against his breastbone, breath in his lungs, unsure of where the blaster bolt impacted and whether or not she's taken a hit.
It's just long enough to send another careening his way, driving him back at the last moment in a dodge that has him stumbling backwards toward a bright green beam, away from the black scorch where the blaster round kicks up dirt and dust and - Kylo knows - another waits to take its place. )
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By the time she's on the ground, he's close behind, and she rolls up onto one knee and pushes herself up in time to thrust the blue beam of her blade into a deflective stance that knocks Ji's back. Rey whips the saber to either side in a pinwheel, wedging herself between Kylo Ren and his one-time subordinate, her back squarely facing the defector that she knows will be frustrated with her choice to insert herself rather than run.
In her mind, she urges him back, and the slow carry of her steps crowd him towards the edge of the mine shaft. They reach it—a surprisingly deep fall, but no more than twenty feet—just in time for an explosion of red to spray like fireworks over their heads, raining dust from the wall over the mouth of the mine shaft. Ji readies another swing, and Rey turns to use her free hand to push Kylo Ren down it—another fall on her tab, but this time, her boots land on even ground just below, and she peers out at a sprawling pathway, about twenty feet wide, with magnetic rails for carts to lumber along spiderwebbing out into the mountain.
If she had more time, she might be astounded by the sight. As it stands, she rapidly picks a direction and starts down it at a run. Strings of lights attempt to brighten the dark tunnel, but they've shattered and dimmed with age; luckily, the blue glow of her lightsaber keeps it from pitch, even as they journey deeper. She doesn't waste her breath one words, and isolation has left even her mind unnervingly silent, relying instead on feelings and impressions rather than coherent thoughts. She tugs at the edge of Kylo's to make sure he follows her down the right path. ]
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She drives him back like a siren wail in his head, and Kylo grits his teeth: in defiance, in anger, in retaliatory, childish petulance. This isn't her fight, he thinks, but just as quickly corrects himself with the knowledge that it's as much her fight as it is his own, pressing to the ground palms and fingers that feel the indentation of choppy gravel through his gloves as he scrambles to get up. His lightsaber screams in a heavy burst of red as it turns over in his grip, but there is no one there for him to fight. He drives deeper into the mine, turning back to throw a wild look over his shoulder just as the roof of the shaft over their heads explodes in a rainfall of rock and a rotted wooden beam and - there. He sees it. A brief, bright flash of a scope catching the last of the moon's sunlight, like a wink.
The green of Ji's saber rises, and Kylo lifts his blade with the intention of folding himself back into the fight but Rey reaches back and pushes him and it's enough to get his feet off of the ground again as he falls and hits the ground a moment later, knocking the wind right out of him. He's on his feet in no time, though he sends no small amount of resentment at her through the crackling connection of the bond as she runs ahead of him, and tears after her down the mine shaft, his mind a whirl of bright green and that single point of light across the way while Rey seemingly chooses pathways at random. His thoughts are hers and vice versa, making communication unnecessary as they plunge deeper into the darkness, and Kylo gets the sense that were he to sweep the ground with light other than the trembling glow offered by their sabers, he would see that his footsteps perfectly match the ones that Rey leaves behind.
Ji follows, though, always right on his heels, tracking them not necessarily by tapping into the Force and sniffing them out but by following the ripping of their breath through open mouths as they pull in stale, dusty air, by listening to the sound of their retreating footsteps and sliding rocks over ground that has not been disturbed in decades. She's quiet, herself, and when Kylo attempts to divert the flow of his attention harnessed on Rey down a different channel focusing on locating Ji, he's repelled as if she's batting him away, like bouncing off of a wall and back into position. The sensation startles him for its existence at all - she should not be able to do this - enough that he grabs one of the hanging, long-extinguished cords dangling bulbs for balance that is suddenly skewed, and rips it out of the wall, glass breaking under his feet as he steps on it.
At once there is a burst of green behind them, too close not to have been cloaked from them completely, and Kylo can't stop himself - he doubles back to level a hard blow. The ground underfoot groans, unhappily disturbed after all these years, and even in the dark he can see - they can see - that the structure is not at all sound. )
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That tether snaps all at once, and Rey can almost feel herself tumble forward towards the inky well of darkness that lies waiting for them, dust skidding up in a cloud around her and thickening it. He stops, turns, digs his heels in. The tunnels sigh. The mountain's foundation cries out, begging for respite, a groaning pain that sags with the weight of them, and the musty air stinks of something burning, the sediment spun to smoke by the path of their lit sabers.
The void left between them aches like a missing piece of herself, the Force closing its fist around her throat to shout her down from allowing that valley to grow between them. A shortened, wheezed breath floods her lungs. She whips around to watch and wait, panicked by the severity of the sensation as much as by the actual potential for loss that hangs heavy in it—this shouldn't happen. But then, there is no should or shouldn't for something that lacks precedent. It feels like he's been torn out of her to lose the uniformity with which they act, and Rey jerks to a stop, whipping around to peer after him.
A glow of green lights his silhouette on the steel and dirt and cobwebs of the tunnel wall where it curves around, and it cracks into a blossom of something hideous and near-orange as Kylo clashes with their pursuer. Rey gapes, choking back a cry of dread, and rounds the corner to reach Kylo's side: she finds Ji popping forward and back in a series of blows that reflects her acute familiarity with the fact that she can't best Kylo Ren in a battle of sheer strength. In some way, that emboldens Rey, leaves her feeling inimitable for driving his saber into the snow and ridding him of it.
Still. There's something sharp and targeted in the way Ji advances, something that searches out weak points and creates them where they don't exist. She lifts the saber with both arms, and Rey realizes that she's not in a position to get between them in time, so she takes the only other route she has to protect him: she raises her free hand, fingers spread, wrist tilted, and catches the blade on the downswing with thick tendrils of invisible energy to restrain it like a net. ]
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It feels like he's died. Or she's died. Even in knowing that they both still live yet - he can feel her eyes in the dark, even if he can't see them - the ache is substantial and alarming, and he can't immediately pinpoint the reason for it as he drives Ji back again and again with a series of hard, brutalizing blows meant to decimate her. She stumbles under the weight of one, and Kylo grits his teeth and almost growls through the unbroken barricade of white washed red-orange from the colliding light of their blade, but Ji slips free and swings wide and hard at his head, knowing that he will duck before she's able to score a blow but also knowing that it will put him on the ground.
It's so hard to see in the dark, and he can't sense either of the women in the tunnel the way that he should be able to. Kylo lets intuition guide him as he throws a hand up with the express purpose of shoving Ji and knocking her aim off only to find that the heavy ripple through the Force that he sends her way is not his own but Rey's, whose presence seems to roar to life the moment she manipulates energy and air and dirt and dust and debris to stop Ji's green blade from burning a hole three inches deep into his shoulder: a nice finishing piece to complete the set that Rey began on his opposite shoulder.
Kylo stares at her.
The coalescence of their blades creates a ripple effect of color along the wall, lighting the tight lines of Ji's shoulders as she struggles for a moment too long to break free of the hold that Rey - face cast in heavy shadow and wrists twisted under the force of her own ability - exerts over her. Kylo feels his pulse race with some unknown rush. No time to examine it, he takes a hurried breath as he propels himself to his feet with his saber in hand and slides in close to Ji's throat with the burning, shaking flat of his lightsaber. )
Drop it. ( His voice is low, rumbling up from somewhere deep, and he casts a quick glance at Rey to determine the state of her remaining strength, trying to gauge how long she can keep Ji held against the web of her power. When the Knight does not react with the speed he's looking for, the sharp edge of the anger that he has been keeping at bay since the Falcon splits open right down the center and spills everywhere. It fills the hollow ache in his chest and the hole in his mind where Snoke used to be and the bitterness of tasting dirt by the strength of Ji's reinforced swing. He replaces the smell of burning hair and melting fabric, heating metal, with the sharp curl of his hand around Ji's throat, throwing most of the innate physical power that he has without the assistance of the Force to back it up into the thrust of his arm as he pins her against the wall behind them. The toe of his boot snaps the ancient cord torn from the wall and a lightbulb bursts underneath his heel. He squeezes his hand. ) Drop it.
( Eventually, green falls away. Kylo doesn't - can't, won't - let go. )
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Watching the monstrous form of Kylo Ren advance on her, making even the intimidating, masked figure of a stranger look like a helpless victim, makes it easier and not. Rey cannot deny the release of tension that takes place as his leather-wrapped fingers squeeze around the meat of her neck allowing Rey to breathe and exert less of her own power over the knight, but she can not ignore the moral qualms she faces in allowing him this tactic of swaggering intimidation.
Worse, it doesn't seem to cap at intimidation.
Rey chokes out a gasp as the lightsaber clatters to the ground, and she drops her hand, doubling over to gulp down air, weary in a way that she has never been—a claim she's been able to make more and more since Kylo Ren secured a more permanent position in her life. But it's not only her own exhaustion that suffocates her now; the miasma of Kylo Ren's untethered anger, set free from its chains like a rabid animal, swells and threatens to bury them all here.
The tunnel trembles. ]
Stop. [ She rasps the words, pushing herself back to stand and striding forward to grab at his shoulder; the distant sound of rattling laughter, strained for breath, sounds like it's a million miles away; it's not the muffle of Ji's mask that dampens the sound, but the surreality that dazes Rey. ]
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Do it. The voice is back, whispering, and he still can't tell if it's a manifestation of something that always was there before or something else, something within him wholly separate from Snoke. It sounds like Snoke but doesn't, though if he were pressed to explain and list the differences, Kylo isn't sure that he would be able to. It rises in pitch and volume with the tandem rise of the darkness within him, drawing breath like a great storm about to crack on the nearby horizon. The tunnel seems to shudder with the anticipation of it, and Kylo himself feels heavier, somehow drunk with the power he clasps in his hand and yet steady enough at the same time to wield it. This is the perfect darkness that he had been looking for on the bridge, this is the clarity that he was promised. It lies in here, in this fluttering heartbeat, in this intake of breath, in his own hands. He is power, plain and simple, open and exposed like a stripped nerve.
This is Kylo Ren.
It's this that clouds everything, threatens to drag them all under. He feels an answering call in the girl he knows is still behind him, the same way that he had and has and, he knows, will continue to feel. His darkness eclipses hers but what builds in him recognizes like for like and sniffs it out in her like a bloodhound, magnetically pulled to her gravitational charge, feeding off of it and smothering it all at once. A fire consuming another fire to become larger, brighter, hotter. Whatever darkness there is in Rey that speaks to him is reduced by this, this onslaught, overpowered by these parts of him that he cannot deny, and it's this maelstrom that buzzes as hard and heavy in his head as the lightsaber in his grip that deafens the sound of Rey's sharp inhale, covers the tread of her boot, and muffles the rustle of fabric as she reaches out to grab his arm and pull him back. Someone is laughing, but Kylo ignores it and attempts to throw Rey off of him with a shrug. )
This is the only way it ends. ( He chances a glance back at Rey, eyes wild in the haze of green and blue and red. Kylo tries to reach for her, tries to make her see the inevitability, what happens next if they don't end it here and now: Ji pursuing them, the Knights regrouping, following them until they are eventually worn down, outnumbered, brought before Snoke; Kylo to endure the discipline necessary for his actions. Rey, forced to kneel. )
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She can see the final, tiring blow levied against him reflected in his eyes, a monolith toppled in a heap of heavy black robes, as similarly dressed masked figures haul her away from him despite her screams. She can hear her own screams tangle with Kylo Ren's howls of pain as the bond exacts his punishment in equal part on her, and it's that empathy that drives her onto her knees before the husk-like phantom that carries the stick. It is all very real, a three-dimensional nightmare projected into the hollow of her mind as vividly as the promise of their unified front had been, the one that had bent her to the belief that she needed him.
Now, it feels manipulative, and Rey growls, anger burning wet at the corners of her eyes as she tears herself out of the visceral experience Kylo projects through their mental link. ] Get out!
[ Rebuffing him comes hard, and it leaves her adrift in a numbing void, still latently aware of him in some distant way. Rey is positive that she will never be able to fully extricate her mind from his, no matter how hard she pushes, but she needs to save some part of her mind as her own and free herself from his influence and the haunting whisper that pervades it.
She knows the whisper—Do it, it suggests to him, in a voice that does not belong to Leader Snoke—because she has heard it in her mind as he tried to urge her towards his tutelage, towards his partnership, towards him, and Rey feels suddenly sick, the sour taste of bile stinging her mouth before she can choke off her own dizzied nausea.
When she sought to free him from that bond, from Snoke's influence, it was under the belief, the assumption made on what she'd seen there, that it was Snoke's whispers and nurturing alone that had turned Ben Solo away from his family and made him a tool for the Dark Side, the sharp edge of a blade that they pressed to General Organa's throat. But Snoke isn't down here with them, when the inferno of Kylo Ren's dark methods burns hotter and brighter than she has ever seen it, a firestorm of hate and vengeance.
Abject horror floods Rey as, in that moment, she accepts the terrible reality: she was wrong.
A staggered half-step carries her away from him, the weight of the blow flagging her resolve as she realizes that it's too late to see him for what he really is, lightyears from anyone who might help her muzzle him. She can feel the way he revels in it, and the way he tries to share that thrill with her, and disgust aside, it confuses her because she can hear him also trying to rationalize it—two sides at war with one another, one that demands to know that its actions are right, and one that celebrates them regardless. ]
No. [ She balls her hands into fists. ] It's not. If you're going to kill her, then do it, but I won't let you justify succumbing to fear by pretending it's the only way. [ The words come out in a snarl, unforgiving and accusatory, wide hazel eyes recognizing him for precisely what he is, probing unnervingly into him, and buried in him are all the reasons that this one act will make him into the coward she's accused him of being. ]
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The door between them closes with a snap that makes him physically recoil, a sensation not at all dissimilar to the way she had thrown him out of her mind on Starkiller. It's a perceived and physical blow all at once, and Kylo feels the whiplash effect of it as comes up dry and hard against the barrier of her thoughts, the mental fortifications that he has encountered before in various ways - not all of them the same as Starkiller, some with the careful consideration of his palm testing the feel and give of her ability and desire to keep him out - with equal amounts frustration and awed humiliation.
Rey leaves him alone in the dark, where he is carried on warm whispers that blow cool underneath the main current, and adds insult to injury by still existing in the milky, in-between world that comprises their connection when they are not facing in the same direction, and it is only through his dogged pursuit, this obsessive compulsion, that he glimpses very briefly - filtered through the dark and the dank and the heavy curtain of thought that urges him to do it, just do it, it can be over. - the nauseating horror that she experiences. It staggers him somewhat, enough that when she moves to step away from him, Kylo finds that the upper half of his body follows her, as if his breastbone were connected by string to her rib cage. Hardly the first time that he has experienced such a sensation while mired without the hurricane of dark energy that drags him down and down and swaddles him in inky black, the feeling itself is not unwelcome, but it is a distraction, as much as her answering accusation is, and within the enclosure of that distraction, Kylo realizes the folly in his own inability to dismiss it, boiled down to the barest sentiments and easiest translations: he does not want her to be wrong.
The thought calls out like shattered glass, a single, high note of perfect stillness. Darkness surges in retaliation, and with nowhere to go but into its embrace, Kylo relents and lets it smother him, much more willing to be engulfed by the ease of what comes naturally than to fight tooth and nail for a desire that has battered him raw and bloody for the better part of twenty years. His teeth bare, reflecting the conjoined light of their sabers and bending his face into a meaner countenance, almost wolfish in appearances. The completion of his half-turn back toward Rey reaches its apex, and his arm stretches long across his body to keep Ji pinned inexpertly where he has her. )
Don't be so nai - ( Kylo's hard look and spiteful tone are reserved for Rey only, and in that disadvantage, Ji finds her window. He realizes his mistake too late, when Ji moves quicker than he thought capable. She drops his hand and reaches for her belt, toward the back of the long sweep of her cloak, so quickly and so peripherally that the movements blur together. Then she jams the business end of a vibroblade into his thigh.
Kylo roars with the black agony of it, sending shockwaves down through tendon and muscle until it hits bone, and instinctively he caves inward and jerks up at the same time, slashing at the Knight with the flat of his blade. She's already moved out of fatal reach, coughing and gulping in deep lungfuls of air filtered through the mask, but he manages to glance the small of her back with the tip of his lightsaber, and Ji howls, too, the pain an enraging, open wound in the Force, in the tunnel, all of it around them trembling, rocks skittering, dirt falling like water, as their separate, individual energies clash against one another like conflicting currents. )
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For all her attempts to separate herself, drive a divider between them and isolate herself in the quiet of her own mind, Rey feels with perfect clarity the hum of the vibroblade as it cuts to bone, leaving a burning ache behind. It dazes her to a series of wide blinks long enough not to react as Kylo chases Ji with the beam of his saber, leaving a hot burn that mirrors a scar Finn bears. Let no one claim that Kylo Ren is an honorable swordsman.
Rather than waste time judging that move, Rey follows. She raises her knee and drives her heel forward into the small of Ji's back to knock her deeper into the mine, knowing full and well that a shallow slice across the back is far from fatal. In the worst escort mission from the worst video game ever, Rey attempts to wedge herself between Kylo Ren and his former second, taking up the task of the fight in a fervent effort to all at once keep him alive, keep him from killing Ji, and fight Ji off. She has two staggered steps to do it before Ji recovers, and turns with the vibroblade poised to defend herself.
Rey parries it with surprise, finding that the technology has sufficiently improved to help it deflect a lightsaber. It rebuffs her, the force of the collision ringing through her bones like reverb, but she continues to make horizontal cuts to keep Ji from landing a strike until her muscles howl disapproval—the horizontal slash becomes a sweeping arc that slips past the hilt of Ji's blade while she's got her arm extended to jab it. Rey takes the hit in her ribs, the knife cutting between her fourth and fifth with a sharp sting that dizzies her, in order to take advantage of the opening with that arcing motion and sweeping her blade straight through Ji's wrist, as though it were hardly there.
The blade, and Ji's hand, thuds when it hits the dirt floor, but it is drowned out by the sounds of pain. Rey pushes down the snapping wolf within her that wants to feed on the blood, to rejoice that it has been shed and laud itself for the violence of the act—it tastes like revenge, looming in defense of the monster that hovers like a shadow projected on the mouth of the tunnel behind her. ]
You can't keep fighting; you must know that. [ She kicks the vibroblade away. ] Surrender. Take your life.
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Rey, who steps in front of him and throws a high knee toward the twist of melted fiber and the smell of burnt skin that greets him when he looks up. The world seems to slip sideways down into a black spiral of hollow, hot pain, and he can feel his pulse in his leg where blood rises to the surface and turns the dull and dark fabric of his pant leg almost luminescent with the damp glitter of dark blood on dark clothing. Bile rises in the back of his throat at being shuffled to the side in such a fashion, and it gurgles at the thought of Rey trying - assuming - to protect him even while she's trying to stop him from ripping Ji apart limb by limb. His teeth grind together, rip apart just as savagely to let a sharp bark full of surprised pain issue forth as he looks up in time to watch Rey parry and drive the Knight of Ren back.
He imagines that this is what it might have looked like had their positions been reversed on Starkiller, had he been the one waking in the snow to watch her beat the opponent back and back. He has the recollection of his own time spent down and out across from her, waiting and wondering if she would take the window of opportunity to drive the solid blue beam down into him, stop the course of their intertwined lives from intersecting ever again in that moment, but this is different. Kylo is not unconscious, for starters, with one hand grasping the shaking hilt of his saber and the other palm-down in an effort to guide himself to his feet. He won't kneel, not in pain, not in obedience, not out of necessity.
The pain is not enough to distract him from the whirling turn of color and light converging that Rey becomes, swallowed by darkness on either side but still illuminated. Kylo knows when Ji lands a hit, slaps a palm against his abdomen as the sensation of Rey's skin splitting open right between her ribs hits him like a punch straight to the gut, but he also knows how Rey intends to use it and can't find it within him to critique her strategy when Ji's hand and blade fall away in one perfect motion from the mercy of Rey's form. He would have taken the same risk, employed the same strategy, in the interest of winning, and it's this thought that brings him to his feet, bent over and favoring his left leg as he is.
Rey is speaking, and he hears it through the haze of his own slide down into the darkness, shadows pulling and clawing at his arms and legs, wrapping around his middle, offering him the strength he needs to stand, to drive forward if need be. He hears the clatter of the vibroblade as Rey kicks it away, a sharp, metallic spin deeper in the shaft, completely out of sight and swallowed by the darkness. Ji is a ragged mess, a bleeding tear in the Force, cradling what's left of her wrist against her chest in an effort to stem the pound of pain rather than out of despair. He knows better than to think her movements are the anything other than strictly clinical, but the flow of her anger is strong and alarming, infecting the wound.
I would rather have yours, she says, before extending one hand with a power that is not hers. Ji's fingers spread out and turn inward in a jerking motion, and Kylo has just enough sense and energy left within him to grab Rey by the belt and haul her bodily away from the spot she has been occupying. The mine goes up in a thick cloud of dust, painting the both of them with brown-black soot and filling their nostrils and mouths with pulverized rock. )
Go! ( Kylo manages to roar it at her through the cough that erupts from his chest, throwing open the channel between them with a fierce shove that cracks an iron handrail next to them under the concentrated effort of reaching her in this way. His hand is still wrapped around her belt, and he uses it to shove her ahead of him, their red and blue blades the only light in the gloom. )
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Her heels pivot and she takes a series of skittered steps after him towards the mouth of the mine, only for him to shove her past his form on the way out. Rey uses the connection—blown open like splintered wooden doors under a concussive blast—to search him out in the haze of dust and debris without using her eyes, one hand closing around his where it clutches her belt, pulling him along with her back the way they came.
The Force and their shared senses—however hindered they presently are—help her to see through the blinding chaos and tumult, the echo of fallen rocks cuing her to the edges of the tunnel where the upheaval rumbles more quietly. She can feel the air where it wisps upward and outward, a gasping clamor for the open space of the basin carved in the mountain for the mine’s operations. They reach the messy and derelict ramp that winds up a steep cliff that Rey had, in her panic, taken at a dive on the way in, and only then does she stop to squint against the dust, all but unflinching as tiny grains of powder buffet against her eyes.
She searches for some sign of Ji, a green flicker, a shadow, a whisper of breath, a cry of pain through the Force, but hollow silence echoes back at her. It shakes Rey in a surprising way. She’d killed herself, hoping so desperately to take the two of them down with her; that kind of blind devotion goes against everything she could imagine, and makes Snoke more dangerous than she’d imagined.
The dust chokes the last of the oxygen out of the tunnel and Rey wheezes, hacks, as the deprival catches up with her. She doubles over, ushering Kylo Ren up the ramp with her in scrambled, haphazard movements; one foot slides off the ramp, and her opposite ankle gives with the effort of trying to recover her weight. She stumbles into Ren, recovers, and shoves him the rest of the way out of the tunnel in time to flatten herself on the ground, lightsaber dimming all at once, to sprawl out and catch her breath, skin and clothes and hair blackened by the plumes of minerals. A groan echoes out of her as she rolls onto her side, one hand flattening against the blackened slice in her ribs, but she can’t moan over the ache for long because a single thought pierces through her awareness, sudden and sharp: the sniper.
Casting a glance over at Kylo Ren does not hearten her to their chances. If the wound in her side aches, the wound in his leg is worse still, screaming for relief from supporting his weight on shredded muscle. She moves her hand up to grab his shoulder and push him to the ground with her, using the cover of the billowing dust that evacuates the mine with all their same urgency to keep fire off their backs. ]
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Adrenaline floods him, his fingers grip Rey's belt tight, and the anchoring grip of her curled fingers comes down across his wrist like a vice. Kylo's fingers tighten around her belt in response, his knuckles hard and driving against the curve of her waistline where he urges her forward and runs after her. There's no point in shielding his eyes when the dust and dirt and chipping rock is too monumental to hide from, so thick that in their haste to retreat and clear the area it becomes difficult to make out anything other than the pale slash of Rey's figure less than a foot in front of him. His thumbs the ignition switch on his saber and kills the beam just as Rey delivers them to the edge of the ramp and begins their climb up and up and up.
He feels her slip as she shoves him past her, the distribution of weight suddenly relocating in such a way that leaves him no choice but to look back in the event that her stumble should cost them both, but Rey is already climbing to her feet and pushing him in the same instant that she is crashing into him. The edge of the ramp surges in front of him, accompanied by even ground, and Kylo manages to keep himself aloft long enough to go down on one knee with as much dignity and pride intact as possible before overbalancing in the opposite direction and sprawling on the ground next to her.
Out of his peripheral vision, he can see the dark swell of blood where it seeps through her clothing, and his head hits the ground in a way that his body was denied, his bad leg contorted under the onslaught of pain that radiates outward and inward, one hand pressed to his ribs in the same spot Rey is mindful of now before he turns over onto his side with the intention of getting a better look at the blow Ji had landed. It's a move doused heavily in the lingering surge of adrenaline afforded by pain and the Force and the dark twist of that union, a hard palm bumping into her abdomen without ceremony or permission. Fortunately, he has little time to consider the ramifications of it, as Rey is shoving him down into the dirt not a moment later once again.
Recollection of the sniper crosses their mind at the same moment - whether by chance or because of the bond, he isn't sure - and Kylo winds an arm between her shoulder blades to encourage her head down under the heavy spray of two supressive shots. Red blaster fire from the mine's proper entrance sings over their heads and explodes into rock face not twenty feet from where they lie, closer to Rey's head than to his own. Kylo looks up just in time to catch the swagger of heavy boots and the broad shoulders of the sniper through the haze of settling dust as the high, distinct whine of a weapon charging, preparing to fire, rends the air.
Without warning, Kylo gathers up what anger and burning disdain hasn't left him, what range he knows he has and the power he has cultivated and nourished for the last twenty years, despite injury or suffering or pain, he has left and extends a long hand through the Force toward the advancing figure blocking their exit. He feels skin and bone sift under the pressure that he exerts, sinew and muscle snagging on fingertips that turn inward, inward, inward, digging down and in, and then tear out. The gun clatters to the floor. )
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It floods her then, the moment the threat is gone, a series of brutal realities all demanding her awareness at once: Kylo Ren’s thin restraint of and the visceral horror struck by his scraping, clawing, gnawing bloodlust; Ji’s willingness to fall on her own sword to bury them here in service to a phantom master who, Rey understands now, just as likely sent her as a threat and a message of the reach of his power than as any real threat. Had he wanted them both dead, now, she would have rallied every other knight at her back, and they would have swelled and overcome Rey and Kylo Ren easily.
This was a warning shot, and yet, the discharge it sounds when it tears through the air deafens her, dazes her, and she feels the coursing rapids of nausea rattle her apart. Rey pushes up onto her hands, retches over the dirt of the mine, and still choking, pushes the rest of the way to her feet to stagger blindly through the cloud of dust in a dizzy panic. Her thoughts are a jumble: a warning shot, a series of images of cold steel ship pathways and an armed guard of black-cloaked knights, the empathic screaming waterfall of pain of phantom punishment exacted on Kylo Ren.
No one can give her orders or training rituals or an objective to cut through the senselessness of the battle, the hideous chaos of the war that rages in a hurricane around them. Being quick-on-her-feet, determined, resolute, none of these things help her when she’s adrift in a vacuum of wandering suffering. There is only one answer, one end, to kill Snoke, but he is a phantom, coiling his fingers around their throats from across the galaxy, and for the first time, doubt strikes her.
They need to rest, regroup, heal, strategize, but the thought of doing any of those with Kylo Ren turns her stomach as surely as the slurry of panic and imagined futures that assaults her mind, and it’s frantically shoved aside just as quickly. Wrong. She was wrong. Leia, in her insistence, was wrong, and though she had allowed Rey to believe that the monster was inside of him, she sees now that he had become it long ago.
Rey stops in her tracks when her feet kick the barrel of the rifle. Bending over, she scoops it up without stopping to think about what she’s doing—scavenging—and pulls the harness over her shoulder, and diverts her attention back towards the clearing mouth of the mine where she expects to see the shadowy form of Kylo Ren. It feels a lot like being right where she started. ]
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The roughness of the ground slams into his palms, and Kylo catches himself in that way, refusing to sit or kneel but lingering at a crouch that allows him to catch his breath but does nothing to alleviate the blinding pain the vibroblade had left etched deep into him. The sniper is down fifty yards or so away from where he crouches, now stands again, but it's Rey's dry heaving that receives the bulk of his attention. He'd felt the snap, that quick sever, and while he makes no move to remove the helmet that winks at him from where the body itself has fallen, Kylo knows without having to check that it's Aurren Ren underneath the heavy armor, deadly with a blaster but worthless on the ground.
There's no room left within him to spare any amount of consideration for his subordinate's demise - keeping in mind what drove both Aurren and Ji here, tailing them through space, Kylo is of the opinion that neither of them deserve it, at least as far as the pain will let him have any opinion. Rather, he concentrates the bulk of his focus on what this means for him - for them - at the end of all things. He has destroyed the Knights of Ren, defied Snoke, killed at least one of his own men after a hasty pursual, abandoned the First Order in relative silence with no inclination as to what he intends to do with the information that he possesses, defied and abandoned Snoke. With Rey's help.
He turns to look at her, shouldering the heavy rifle and casting a glance toward where Kylo stands, either waiting for her or gathering his bearings. Not even he is sure. The deep darkness of the mine shaft stretches behind her, a swirling mass of dust and debris and loud, shifting crashes that still tumble from deep within. The light outside the tunnel they have traversed is waning but not dark, and it allows him to see some of the expression on her face although much of it is cast in shadow. There's no need to test the limits of the bond between them in an effort to determine what it is she thinks or feels. The set of her shoulders tells him what he needs to know, and while Kylo can't rightfully say that he finds anything disquieting about it, it does call to attention what it is that has ultimately shifted between them. It isn't the first time they have stood on separate ends of a dividing line, but this time there is nowhere for them to go but forward, with equal stride. )
Let's get back. ( He says it without bothering to pose it as a question, bending down after a moment's pause to seize Aurren's still form - not much bigger than Kylo's own - and drag him. Dead men are heavy, and Kylo has little respect for someone who would have put a blaster to his head years ago, unprovoked, and pulled the trigger were it not for Kylo's position at the head of the pack, but he's a warrior. He'll get a warrior's end.
Ji, wherever it is that she remains, is unreachable now. )
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What are you planning to do with it? [ Callous, perhaps, but years on Jakku have afforded Rey a sense of perspective—nothing dead is a “him” anymore. Whoever he was, he’s gone, and all they have before them now is an unremarkable corpse, wholly similar to any other. If Kylo allows her, she’ll take Aurren’s weight over her opposite shoulder, an act that burns the injury in her ribs and reminds her how deep into the tissue it cut, but at no risk of losing her footing. More than can be said for the last Knight of Ren standing.
She is ruthlessly pragmatic in this way, putting aside her own personal struggles to confront what she knows they must do—remain together. Without the other, neither of them has even the slightest chance of getting off the moon, and more to the point, surviving the onslaught that will follow the two they put down here. Her movements are mechanical but purposeful, concentrated on shuttering her emotions and considering only the benefits of cooperation in the immediate moment. Her horror at the pool of darkness that Kylo Ren steeps himself in is irrelevant—these knights are already dead, and one by her own hand.
That horror, she can’t suppress. It claws its way up her throat and sticks there to choke her. ] She killed herself. Why would she do that? [ No matter that she knows why—clear as day, to take them with her—but how could she do that? How is her survival not her first consideration, before her loyalty to some demagogue? For as much as she barely trusts him now, the pitch of her tone all the same seems to beg an explanation of her reluctant companion, as does the shake of her head. This radical, blind following is too far beyond her experience. ]
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Burn it. ( His agreement with her choice of words aside, it's still bestowing honor where Kylo isn't entire sure that honor is due. The other Knights wouldn't see it that way, given the strength of their opposition following the destruction of two of their own here on Concordia, but he very much doubts that he will win back any favor for disposing of Aurren in this way as opposed to letting him rot at the cave entrance. Kylo won't leave him much by way of accessories - he's already taking stock of what they can use between them other than the blaster that Rey has shouldered - and Aurren is roughly the same height as Kylo but not quite as broad about the shoulders and back. At the very least, they can afford to leave the armor, if Rey is not interested in it.
He eyes her now, at the dark spill of blood across her abdomen and the dirt that colors her face a darker bronze than it is naturally, a thin sheen of sweat making her shine somewhat sickly. The dirt and dust offers her artificial color but underneath it, she's paler than usual, whether from bloodloss or pain or something else entirely, Kylo isn't sure. He doesn't ask, just gives Aurren's heavy corpse a hard tug that has the frayed muscles in his legs screaming now that he no longer needs the pain to drive him forward, push him on. Sweat curls down the back of his neck and beads into his high collar. )
Grab his other arm. ( His voice is dry but firm, commanding, unyielding and unwilling to admit that he needs assistance while conceding the fact that he won't get far without it. Pride won't let him fall so far as to hand the bulk of this responsibility over to her, admit that the injury he's received is impeding him in any way, but at this point he knows better than to argue with her inclination to help in the interest of preserving whatever amicability they can generate between the two of them. He's too preoccupied with not falling over or stumbling to consider the harsher realities of what he's done here as they relate to his arrangement with Rey, what it might mean once they're out of immediate danger and back with the Resistance, the way she looks at him. As for Rey's question, Kylo finds that he has no answer suitable for discussion when he's half-dragging, half-carrying a dead Epicanthix behind him. Simplicity works best. ) She's a Knight of Ren. The explanation begins and ends there.
( For most. For all. But not for him, apparently. It's a thought that rests heavy in his sternum, making the already laborious task of breathing even more difficult. Kylo watches his feet as they retreat closer to the heap of administrative buildings that they have dismantled in their skirmish, ready to see this deed done and behind him. As behind him as it might ever be. He glances up once at the opening to the mine shaft once they have left it behind, listening to the muffled clatter of rock that still settles in the wake of their disruption. On an impulse, he casts out a wide net through the Force as well as he can in the condition he's in, looking for a trace, a ping on his radar. But there's nothing. He glances over at Rey. )
Your form leaves something to be desired - ( He grunts, stops a moment to press his palm against the hole in his thigh, then continues. ) - but you're impressive in a fight.
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Sweat beads in her eyebrows, trickles towards her eyes, but she shakes it away with all the gruff diligence and lack of grace owed to a wet dog. It also helps her blink some of the flustered, salty sting away from her eyes, dismisses that as sweat too and not overwhelmed sensation of such an emotional conflagration, an inability to understand and reconcile Ji's rejection of her mercy.
She feels the ripple of his sonar-like search, flinches instinctively away from it on her own part, but keeps her jaw set and her eyes forward when she feels his eyes bodily turn on her. Looking to him would require acknowledging that it's him she works with in this task, when really she's trying to cling to the dutiful productivity as a means of ignoring her greater circumstances. But his voice rattles around in her brain like it's off-key, an unpleasant tang that cannot be ignored, that reverberates in her molars and makes her teeth ache. ]
Don't you dare. [ Her own voice simmers with the thinly veiled rage of betrayal, an emotion she wouldn't have believed could be generated in her by Kylo Ren, for betrayal required some semblance of trust to begin with. It trembles and quakes, both under the restraint of her power, of the violence she wants to turn on him in her fear and anger of what his actions in the tunnel meant for him, for the Resistance, for them; and under the choking effort of getting words out at all when she's trying to quiet and calm herself. ]
If you have any respect for me at all, you'll keep your mouth shut.
[ Rather than appeal to the sympathy or empathy that she doubts he has, she appeals to the basest component of this cock-eyed relationship they've tumbled into. Even as far back as Starkiller, he'd offered that to her. She can't count on anything else anymore. A part of her, traitorous and mistrusting, wonders now if he has merely seen fit to drop some grand illusion, to drag her back to Snoke himself and make good on the lies he'd told and realize the vision they shared of their inevitable capture—not out of loyalty to Snoke, but out of a desire to regain his power and violence and freedom and to possess her all at the same time. ]
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If only. Kylo's silence speaks to all of that and unwittingly more, and it's unclear even to him the reasons that he has for saying nothing in the wake of her command, gritted out between teeth, trembling with the weight of her restrained ability and the tight wind of her own rage and frustration, her pain and anger. It threatens to overwhelm him and drag him down again, but where before, in the mine, that well seemed untapped and bottomless, extending forever in a downward spiral eager to receive the broiling, tumultuous roll of black thoughts and even blacker intentions, Kylo gets the impression that the depths are much more shallow now than they were previously. He's at his limit - they both are - and it's as much that as it is whatever has begun existing between him and the girl who trudges dutifully, inexplicably, by his side, hauling this dead weight in step with him.
Kylo says nothing and in the wake of having nothing to say, lets his mind go blank. Within that nothingness, the pain in his leg and in his hands begins to become burdensome, so that when they finally reach the dilapidated offices, he's eager to rid himself of the Knight they support between the two of them. Kylo drops his side like a sack of potatoes, pushing sweat-slick hair out of his face and, finally, affording himself the opportunity to glance down at his thigh. Even with his pants and armor covering it, he can tell that it isn't exactly good.
After a moment, he turns to Rey, lips pressed together though the faint suggestion of something not wholly volatile or even angry hangs around the corner. He quirks an eyebrow at her, cool as a cucumber. )
May I speak?
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this is the worst tag i'm so sorry this weekend has been insanely busy and it's only saturday
NO WORRIES my life is a blur right now i'm so unreliable omg
MINE TOO it's fine it's fine. prayer circle for me and you. i hope you're surviving!!!!!
just barely./stares into the middle distance. why is the end of the semester so hard
i have never understood. i think making it to the end means things should be easier
finals week is finally here i can see the light
YOU ARE ALMOST THERE YOU CAN DO IT. also i apologize for short/crap tags i've been sick this week
i feel like the six days this tag took is enough of a "don't even worry about it"
and then i got pulled for jury duty this week so everything is a mess. I HOPE SCHOOL IS OVER
it is!!! also why can't civil service suit our schedules like "yes hello i'd like to volunteer"
HOORAY YOU MADE IT. you better sleep in until like noon every single day
8( two weeks of summer work + rey cosplay to make tho. BUT SOON. SO SOON.
summer work get outta here but that rey cosplay is gonna be amazing i am 100% sure. THEN SLEEP
SO MUCH SLEEP i conned a bunch of people into helping me with the cosplay so i have a prayer
ALL THE SLEEP hahahaha i am so proud of your conning abilities
it's been like 3 solid days of work + cosplay i'm actually dying. tomorrow too, then con
please don't die i will have to do some black magic to bring you back and i am just not prepared
omg i thought you were studying wtf
i was but i ran out of sacrificial lambs
i waS COUNTING ON YOU
WE WERE ALL ROOTING FOR YOU HOW DARE YOU
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ugh sorry for slow. i've been working 6 days so by thurs/fri i'm like x__x i see infinity
oh god that sounds horrible make it stop
but money is so nice
damn das true
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well a month later i'm the worst rper in the land
that's a weird way to spell best ???
you are legitimately too kind
routine is suuuuuper good for mindset i'm both fatigued by school and glad it's back
now i'm back. from outer space. i just walked in here to find you with that look upon your face!
now that you're back in the atmospheeere drops of jupiter in your haiiir mixes pop lyrics nbd
this is fine it's just the remix duh
club mix ntz ntz ntz
hahah this semester is killing me. i'm sorry if this tag is garbage. december can't come fast enough
honestly sets all of 2016 on fire is it over yet