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i found something in the woods somewhere.
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Her hand reaches out as he finishes to cover his, but his palm moves to the floor just as quickly and she shrinks back, catching herself mid-motion and curling her hand into a fist. Turning her head, she searches the hallways, trying to sift through the silence for cries, but to no avail. The hollow silence presses down on her eardrums, crushing in its emptiness.
A tremulous shake of her head answers him. This time, when she reaches for his hand, she seizes it in a clasp that readies her to pull him onto his feet. ]
Lead the way. [ She hefts the burden of his heart off her shoulders only then, and they loosen as she pulls him to stand, allowing her to stare up at him with fresh eyes. The difference it makes reveals that she had been carrying him on her back since long before they collapsed to that dirt in Corellia. ] Listen to your fear, but don't let it command you. It gives voice to the Dark Side.
[ She will not tell him to shut it out, for she has never shut it out. Only tempered it, turning it to steel for her to wield and wear in her fight against the darkness, against the First Order. ]
What do you hear?
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She looks at him with something renewed, though he's hard-pressed to identify it. The dampness on her cheeks has dried enough in the cool air that he can no longer make out the shine of the overhead light as it cuts across the swell of a cheekbone, and she seems lighter, reinvigorated, and something in him - small and quiet but there - feels lighter in response, dispels some of the gathering tension that has coagulated behind his breastbone and made it so difficult to breathe. Maybe it's the active bond between them, more to do with their shared space inside of each other's minds than anything else, but then again maybe it's just something innate. Either way, it encourages movement, urges him to continue moving forward, though not before dropping his hand to her shoulder, thumb tripping over the bone before withdrawing as he steps away.
Rey's voice chases him as he approaches the new hallway, which spirals downward about five feet in. In response to her instruction, Kylo snorts. Of the two of them, he has the impression that he's the one vastly more learned in sinking to the Dark Side than she is, but that's beside the point, and he doesn't want to waste valuable silence essential to hearing by quipping at her. The hallway, moving ever downward, is cloaked in darkness, a blue-white glow emanating from close to the floor, running the length of the wall as they descend. )
It's unformed. I can't tell what it's saying. ( He finally answers, straining to hear. Not for the first time since they began, he gets the impression that they are not alone. The whispering intensifies, pressing down and growing louder until the hallway is filled with whispers that have no immediate source or translation. His eyes begin to burn and it's only when they begin to water, forcing him to blink heavily and dig the palm of his heel into his right socket, that he realizes it's because he's kept them open throughout the entire trip down and down and down into whatever abyss waits for them at the bottom of the Academy. ) It sounds like -
( Ilum. The hallway gives way to absolute darkness save for the high beam of cold, white light reaching down to pierce the cave's constant night with a hazy glow. Their breath pools in clouds in front of their faces. Colder than Starkiller. Colder than Hoth. Colder than space. There is light here, and just as much darkness to match it. A sacred place now corrupted, he has been here only a handful of times in the real world in order to stand in front of Snoke, to run the gamut of his master's training, to endure hours of agonizing punishment not made tangible enough by a holographic projection. The first time he came to Ilum, he was only sixteen - already a murder, a Jedi killer - and he stood on ground cracked by ice and received praise for what he had done. If he ever felt the darkness more keenly than on that day, he can't remember it, but it isn't what he had been expecting to find at the bottom of the hallway when he led them down it.
A voice calls out in the darkness, eerily close. The whispers have gone. )
I see you.
( It isn't some long ago voice of one of his classmates, not Skywalker's voice bounding after him down the hall. That voice is a collection of ash made dense enough to form shapes. It is a hollow rattle at the back of a throat, the scrape of a cough in deteriorating lungs. It is the scratch of nails on the front door, a slab of stone pulling back to reveal the darkness of the cavern underneath. It is the tide and the crash of waves on the shoreline, terrifying and calming all at once. It carries the promise of cradling comfort, shelter, guidance, while threatening death, desolation, despair should it be disobeyed. Snoke has found them, and he is speaking to Rey. )
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Even the light seemed frozen as it filtered down onto the lifeless landscape.
Huddling up, Rey wrapped her arms around herself to stave off the onslaught, hunching her shoulders to try to protect her ears and stepping in to follow closer at Kylo Ren's flank as if she could use him to block the chill before they were entirely surrounded by it. A few quick glances absorbed the new landscape, but her investigation was cut short by a distant rasp that reached out like a gnarled, bony hand for her.
Every hair on her body stood at its end, fear an ice bath even compared to this bitter frost. Wide eyes watered, chapped and pale lips parting as awareness crept up her spine. She had never before heard Snoke's voice, not with her own ears, but she had discerned impressions of him through Kylo Ren's mind and memories, a shadow of a shadow, yet still a colossus in his power. There was no doubt that he was the one to call out to them now.
He's found us. Panic reared its ugly head, and alongside it, survival instinct urged her to cut and run, to forget Kylo Ren, Luke, Leia, all of them in a pragmatic bid for self-preservation and escape Ren's mind; it would not be long now before his fleet searched out their physical bodies as well now that the link was made. But her feet don't budge beneath her.
In all likelihood, it would be easy to rend herself from Kylo Ren's mind, to return to her body, but Snoke had a stranglehold on Han Solo's only son, one that he could as easily manipulate to crush Ren's throat as he has nudged him along. She could not abandon Ren to fight his way out of that fate alone, not when she had been the one so insistent to rouse him to this fight to begin with.
There is no lightsaber to call to her hand, no blaster to raise, no weapon to find in the great span of his mind with which she can fend off the Supreme Leader. Still, she takes that moment to step out from Kylo's shadow and move in front of him, stance wide and chin high, the very picture of the Jedi as the guardian. ]
You aren't welcome here anymore! [ She shouts, though her voice seems to be caught and muffled by the thin, echoing air of the empty wasteland of Ilum, as useful as shouting into the void of space. Looking over her shoulder at Kylo, she seems to think twice of being the one to make the declaration, searching him for affirmation as she asks point blank, ] I trust you've had enough of voices in your head, on either side.
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Sharp hands dig equally sharp nails into his rib cage, slip between the bones and curl around the bottom to find strongholds in the gaps and pull. It isn't enough to yank him from this mental construct of Ilum, but the strength and violence behind the actual, physical act of this manner of retribution leans him forward under the weight of it, disrupts the steady inhale-exhale pattern of his breathing with a hitch that sounds similar to choking. A steady hand travels up, up, through his lungs to his trachea, applies pressure, just enough to turn the rhythm of his breath to a wheeze, thin and reedy, then nothing at all before it falls away.
He almost slips, almost loses focus enough to emerge from the mind walk like breaking the surface of water after being held under for far too long. Snoke's presence encourages him to wake, promises forgiveness in its existence at all if he just turns his back on this endeavor and escapes. He knows there is no escape. Standing in the dark on Ilum, seated in the uncomfortable chair within the Resistance camp, there is no freedom to be found on either side. The only path that might lead to some semblance of the idea, the word, is the one that they walk right down the middle.
Soft, spoken words return on Ilum, creeping through the cave like heavy fog, forming black words under the guise of a soft touch. )
Bring the girl to me, and all will be forgiven, Kylo Ren. ( Snoke says it to him, only to him, but in this shared space there is no only, and the delicate boom of the Supreme Leader's voice makes rock face tremble and ice crack. The power that his presence holds here, even without physical or projected form, makes Kylo believe, understand, that it's real. Another failure, another weakness, another mark against him. He should drop to his knees and beg for mercy, but he stays standing, ice cracking underneath the weight of him in his own right. ) Return from this moment of weakness, and you will be exulted, not punished.
( Rey steps in front of him, a quick sideways maneuver that he doesn't see coming. He half-expects her to pull out, to leave him stranded in this darkness to warn the others of what's coming, their failure as he slips back underneath the dark waves of the Force as he always has. She is defenseless in the void, the comma of her frame just a figure in the darkness, the barest suggestion of a presence suspended here as his has become, but she steps forward all the same, and it strikes him then that it would be strange to consider her doing anything else. Foolish, suicidal, but brave. A scavenger. She yells into the face of this unknown being and her voice is swallowed by the vacuum of space, by the emptiness of the cave, desperate to consume life so that it may persist. Something shifts very distinctly in the air, the rearrangement of atoms, a new distribution of gravity. Before Kylo can answer her, Snoke begins to laugh. )
I see you, girl. ( He isn't here but he is. He doesn't appear but he does. He is nowhere and everywhere, peering through time and space to look into every part of her with a sharp, distinct lens. Klyo feels the burning focus of his master's intense anger, the cold sting of his perception of Kylo's betrayal. No matter what line he had stood on in the command shuttle, as a prisoner of the Resistance, every step through this landscape has been one further and further from the Supreme Leader's reach, and that, in itself, is inadmissible. Kylo sees that for what it is: he does not stand with his master, and he does not stand with the Resistance; he barely stands next Rey, but he does stand on his own. ) I see the darkness within you. Untouched, untapped, don't hold it at bay, afraid. Use it.
( The intent in his instruction is clear, though hard to facilitate even for someone of Snoke's scope and reach of power. There are no sabers here, no blasters, no weapons to raise against one another. They could unravel one another's minds or tap into arcane abilities to destroy one another. If the cloying darkness Snoke aims to inspire in Rey takes root, she could turn to take Kylo's place at Snoke's side like the Supreme Leader aims for. Anger blooms in him, bursts through his blood vessels, finds a path out through the curl of his hands, freezing cold and stiff and white in Ilum's frostbitten air. It isn't a new feeling, but the source of it is suddenly new. )
Enough. ( The voice that cuts the tangible silence of the cave is his own, loud and dark and twisted with anger underneath the calm rumble of Snoke's, verging on hoarse as it strains against his master. They can't win, can't beat him like this. It's a thought that presents itself completely and unquestionably, as much as the knowledge that killing Snoke is going to be the end goal, as much as what he and Rey had seen together on Yaga Minor. The ambition of all Sith is to defeat other Sith, and while Kylo Ren might not be Sith, the hierarchy of their existence as Knights underneath the Supreme Leader models the hierarchy that his grandfather subscribed to. And Vader threw Sidious down a maintenance shaft. He grabs Rey's arm by the elbow and pulls himself in front of her roughly. ) Your power spans the entire galaxy, Supreme Leader, but it does not reach this far.
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The tremble echoes into the physical world, the camp, Leia, Luke, and all of it too ignorant to see what’s coming for them. Defenseless. The inevitable second prong of Snoke’s attack creates an impossible gambit; one of them will be without Rey’s protection, either Kylo Ren, or the entirety of the Resistance, and she must choose which can better handle the onslaught to juggle against which would ultimately be more valuable in the war to come.
Even as she accepts that she must stay and see through what she committed to, accepts that she must entrust Leia and Luke with the defense of the Resistance and believe that they can raise their banners quickly enough to make a stand against whatever back-up finds its way to Corellia, Rey feels guilt sink deep into her bones for what she knows could deliver a devastating blow to the small remaining hope for the galaxy.
Her preemptive grief opens the door to darkness, not her hate, but she clamps down on it the moment she hears the patronizing hiss coaxing her to give in and allow it to rule her. But Snoke’s offer is even less tempting than Kylo Ren’s, lacking the appeal to her ignorance and inexperience, the lure of untapped knowledge. Snoke has nothing that she wants. ]
I don’t need it. [ She growls the words against the whisper, whipping around as if blown about by the shifting landscape to search out some manifestation of his presence to no avail. He is nowhere and everywhere, an all-present shadow looming over Ilum and enveloping them in its inky black.
The surrounding wasteland only stops spinning when Kylo Ren’s hand settles on her arm, an anchor that he uses to pull her into position behind him, as if in a petty battle of who has greater need to be defended. Looking up at him, confusion furrows her brow, and instead of indignation over the way he impedes Snoke’s path to her, Rey finds herself too startled by the surreal chain of events that is Kylo Ren bodily defending her at all.
It takes her a moment to shake the shock of it off, a brief cut of her head from one side to the other metaphysically extricating her from such a state. ]
You’re the one with the power here. Not him. [ Not that he apparently needs the reminder, a fact for which Rey finds herself both stunned and grateful. ] Get rid of him.
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Rey's voice comes from behind him, and her arm does not withdraw from where he has gripped it, as if she might be blown away, as if keeping her secured in such a manner might prevent or predict her lashing out toward him. He can't be sure whether or not who he should be prepared to defend himself against in this situation, though given her encouragement and corporeal state, the fact that she is not slowly, slowly building pressure behind his eyes and ears, against his Adam's apple, lends credence to his theory that the faith - if it could be called that - he has put in her has not yet been misplaced. )
Your resistance and reluctance to utilize and explore the potential for power you posses so innately has only intensified since the last time I felt your presence in the dark. ( He speaks to Rey again, ignoring Kylo's surge forward for the time being. Indignation flares to life inside of him once more, melting the chill of scattered ice and snow as it dries and stings his eyes to the point of watering. His throat is arid, every gulp of air that he takes sharp as knives. He presses his mouth into a thin line and lets every muscle in his body stand at attention. The thick band of his fingers where they have wrapped around Rey's forearm tighten abruptly, and he recalls without having to hunt too deeply the look on her face as she bested him on Starkiller: teeth bared, higher ground won. ) You don't need it. You will want it. You can take it.
( It's a tone that Kylo recognizes, a voice that spoke to him even while sleeping, even before he could speak himself. Slipping in with untold knowledge, a deeply rooted with personal understanding of character. Snoke knew what Kylo Ren was before he was Kylo Ren. He knew what Ben Solo was. He knew what Ben Solo would become. Now, he looks to instill that same reality in Rey. It drips from his voice like molten sugar, but it can't last, not in the wake of the both of them still standing. As such, his attention leaves Rey for the brief moment to fix solely on Kylo, and he feels it like having a bucket of ice water dumped on hypothermic skin. )
Kneel. ( The compulsion is there. He feels his knees and calves strain under the weight of that absent gaze. Rey will have bruises on her arm when his fingers finally unfurl from where he has grasped her, whether in a malformed idea of defending her or as an actual, physical anchor or as something else, he doesn't know. But he doesn't kneel. Snoke is furious. ) Kylo Ren, you will kneel.
( The cave trembles. The sound of crystals shaking free of the rock bed fills the silence, hundreds of delicate, soft noises that seem out of place. In the real world, Leia Organa sits down, and her twin places one hand on her shoulder, the pad of his thumb ghosting the knob of her spine. His fingertips press white into the starchy fabric of her uniform, and her hands curl so tightly around the seat she folds herself into that her grip mirrors that of her son's where it has yet to release Rey's arm. They sweat.
Kylo answers the Supreme Leader - ) No.
( Ilum explodes.
He's felt his master's hand wrap around his throat and squeeze until he thought that he was dead; he's watched General Hux fall to his knees and beat a fist into the floor as his face turned purple. Kylo himself has dragged deck officers across the bridge into his waiting grasp just to see how frightened they were of him and what he might do. He has watched two of his Knights crumble and collapse under the weight of Snoke's discipline, and his own. He has never seen anything like what unravels in front of them. The inherent power and enormity of Snoke's ability and cohesion with the Dark Side in affecting Kylo Ren's construct is horrifying, and his anger begins to pull it down piece by piece. Never having faced anything of this magnitude in his training or in the field, he has no preparation, has no idea what to do. He looks back over his shoulder at Rey, as if expecting her to have some answer, as if because this was her idea she knows all the rules, and thinks of the only thing that he can: the last place the light touched everything.
It does not happen immediately, they linger in this collapsing world with Snoke's voice and presence filling the air, trying to hook fingers into the both of them, but eventually the world will right itself, and eventually the smell of powder, of engine grease, of fresh flowers, will fill the air, and everything will quiet and warm. The Supreme Leader can neither find them nor chase them to Ben Solo's home on Yavin IV. He is gone. )
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But she doesn't draw back, sees the tension in his joints, feels that his hold on her is as much to keep himself standing as to keep her close, a desperate grab for control and certainty in a sea of chaos as he pushes away from the shores of the First Order.
She hears his refusal, then nothing but ringing. Around them, ice turns to powder and sprays, a geyser bursting from the cracks in the ground, showering them in frost and thick chunks of combusted ice showering like volcanic rock.
Rey throws her free arm over Kylo Ren's shoulders, pushing him to the ground in a vain effort to hurl her body across his to protect him from the collapse. Panic and dread press her eyelids shut, holding her tense there while the world comes apart in a flurry, black stone blending with clumps of frozen wasteland to swirl around them in a destructive whirlwind.
Seconds stretch into hours, with no idea how long she holds there, the crumbling landscape never properly thrashing them in any true threat, but her muscles remain tight and sprawled over Ren until the din dies down, the roar retreating into a comforting silence.
For a few moments, she refuses to accept the shift, but the warmth of a sun beats on her back, stirring melt in the ice that rained down over her, and only that familiarity convinces her that it's not some kind of deception. Slowly, Rey lifts her head, hands still pushing Kylo Ren to the ground, barely even covering his size with even the greatest effort.
Sunlight winks at them through rustling branches over the forests of Yavin IV. She can smell the familiar burn of engines, oil and grease and fuel, sticky on the perfumed forest air. Withdrawing the rest of the way, disentangling herself from him, she raises to her feet, treading in a short series of cautious steps across the forest floor as she looks up. Uncertainty colors the brief flicker of a smile that strikes next, but she dare not be the one to give voice to the victory, however small on the galactic scale.
The wonder of the forest doesn't hold her attention for long, and her eyes trace back over to her one-time enemy, now something else, a few steps away. She searches him with some form of empathy mingled with affirmation; in the same instant she came to finally understand the pressure of Snoke's insistence over the ages, she watched him push it back, stand firm against it. Instead of offering him words that would fail to measure against the weight of the steps he takes here, Rey waits to hold his gaze and incline her head, a steady nod. ]
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It's all gone.
He sits up in the tall grass once she's moved off of him, nose assaulted by the perfume of dense forest, of pine and dirt. His mother's perfume, personalized by Han Solo's permanently dirty hands moving over her skin every time he was planet-side. Through the trees behind them, a home is half-visible, open windows white with curtains. Melting ice has turned the earth underneath of him to damp topsoil, and it smears down the front of him where Rey had pushed his shoulders down, covered him, exposed the back of her neck and the knots of her spine to whatever onslaught could have fallen on them. The band of her arm pressing into the long line of his shoulders is still a buzzing memory of pressure as he digs one palm into the ground and pushes himself up and to his knees. Snoke's voice, his presence, is a sharper one, and Kylo turns his scarred face up to the treetops as if expecting the Supreme Leader to be baring down on them through the canopy branches, but there is nothing, just the warm wash of sunshine.
The first real breath that he takes is deep, a steady inhale through his nose and out through his mouth. He bows his head, letting sweat and melted ice collect on his forehead before he swipes it away with the back of a hand that shakes, despite his best efforts to keep it still. There is dirt on his face, and he wipes at it. His stomach is in knots, a nausea rises and bile burns the back of his throat as it becomes more and more clear what he has done. Repercussions have not set in yet, not quite, and he isn't even sure if what they have accomplished here, now, will be enough to keep Snoke from possessing him at a later time, once they return from this, but he has never before shut his master out with such finality before. Kylo feels sick with power, and he has to look away from the trees in order to make the world stop spinning.
Rey meets his eyes over the long grass, and neither of them say a thing. Whatever has built between them in the past now hangs in the balance like a weighted band. He doesn't know what that means, what it will mean, and is loathe to examine it following this last encounter but it doesn't go away. It doesn't lessen or abate. It stretches warm between them, an open hand, and he returns the nod that she affords him, offering some semblance of the affirmation that she seeks in looking to him. Even though he can't be sure of their success with absolute certainty, Kylo trusts the churning in his gut and the strange, static emptiness that fills his mind where before there was the reassuring presence of a voice that had always been there.
Silence stretches, just the wind wandering softly through the trees, the sunlight warming the exposed skin that's dirty with sweat and dirt and, inexplicably, sand. Finally, he finds his voice somewhere in the back of his throat. )
You didn't have to tackle me.
( Then he turns and dry heaves into the grass. )
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Don't hurry to thank me. I was only trying to save your life. [ Despite her sour tone, the scowl fades quickly as she studies him with concern where he leans over to lose his guts over the toll the task took on him. She doesn't want to crowd him, but there's really no certainty that it was permanent without Kylo Ren being the one to offer it, and he hasn't still.
Casting aside courtesy for his dignity, she strides up beside him. Not so long ago, their positions were reversed, the Force overwhelming her and leaving her staggered and heaving. He had mocked her. Rey keeps a safe distance between them, keenly aware that they've had enough contact for one day.
Instead of reaching for him, she pulls up the bands of her arm wraps, examining the red welts left in her forearm with the cursory inspection of a woman too experienced with minor injuries to give much thought to it. The assessment is over quickly, and only then does she confront him. ] Is this for now, or for good?
[ It doesn't occur to her that he might be equally clueless, that they're hand-in-hand staggering blindly into the dim light of some muddy middle gray area that neither of them has explored or understood, one that has not historically proven effective for any Jedi or Sith to walk, to the understanding of those who still live. Eventually, the scales always tip. Eventually. She's too used to thinking of Kylo Ren as the one who seems to have all the answers that he may or may not choose to impart about the Force, regardless of the bias carried in those answers. ]
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Thank you. ( A pregnant pause fills the space between his words, and he looks up at her with a heavy look that tries to masquerade itself as a smirk, though like the lopsided smile he had attempted to quirk earlier, it looks unpleasant and out of practice. ) For knocking the wind out of me in a completely unnecessary and delusional moment of grandeur.
( The rest of his body follows the turn of his head, and rather than getting to his feet or even to his knees, he allows himself this moment of gravity and stays seated, letting his stomach settle and the restructuring of his mind take precedence over immediately standing in order to look capable in every possible way. Something in him feels significantly emptier than it had previously, as if a light has gone out and left him scraped to the bottom and cold. Where a void had once been filled, it now hangs open like a healed but hollow wound or like the scar tissue that pockmarks his face in a crooked reminder of the agony that had once been there. Almost disconnectedly, as if he's observing from far away, he watches Rey unravel the scraps of fabric that envelop her arms and examine the angry red shapes his fingers had left across her skin.
In conjunction with the sharp smell of acidic vomit next to him and the overwhelming perfume of Yavin IV, the welts that she reveals layer by layer make this all seem too real. He looks away when she questions him, wondering more than anything whether or not those bruises will appear on her arms once they emerge from this place, and, if they do, what scars he might also bear as a result of his own efforts. In direct response to her inquiry, Kylo finally pushes himself to his feet. The muscles in his calves and thighs feel weak, as if he's just pushed his body beyond the brink of its physical capacity. His head swims, but he remains steady. )
I don't know. ( He tells her plainly because there is no point in lying to her. In one way or another, he's been honest with her from the get-go. Knowing what she does now, having facilitated what she has, what they both have, it would be pointless to pretend like he knows better than she does. ) I hardly have experience in breaking a bond in this way. I don't think anyone has experience in breaking a bond this way. But you saw his power. He found us here as if it were no different than finding us outside of this place. Knowing how to block him or push him out when he finds us again does not change the inevitability of it. He will find us, if he hasn't already. What happens then - ( He spares a brief glance back at the fabric that covers her arms. ) - I don't know. ( A pause, and then he opens his mouth as if to say something before thinking better of it, considers a different angle and then proceeds however ill-advisedly. ) I wasn't sure if you were strong enough to withstand him.
( It's not an apology for the way he twisted her arm in his grasp, but it's about as close as he comes. )
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Tired, she decides. Mostly tired. But maybe that's her. The bleed might never stop muddying the waters between their hearts and minds, but she doesn't have the wherewithal to fuss about the possibilities there in this moment. If anything, it's an absent, fleeting thought.
The intonation of apology, on the other hand, really grabs her attention. Her eyes briefly stretch wider, but she tempers the reaction as if she knows in the wake of his sarcastic gratitude (really, why did he keep doing that with his face? Was he in actual pain, thanking her?) that the act of apologizing makes him akin to a frightened animal, ready to retreat at a moment's notice.
For a moment, she's sure he has insulted her in the same breath, saying she wasn't strong enough, but she recalls the hoarse wind of Snoke's influence and the quite palpable sensation of his darkness crashing in around her, crushing her. And that was only a glimpse of what Kylo Ren had suffered for years before he'd relented. Not an insult, then, but a confession of sorts. He'd endeavored to shelter her from that, whether she needed it or not, and it was still impossible for her to imagine anyone's first instinct to be to help her. ]
I wasn't sure if I could either. [ Her dignity grants him a pass despite itself, one quick shake of her head dismissing it. She lowers her arm, quick to dismiss the injury as nothing now that he's at full height. ] But I'll find out sooner or later.
[ Unfortunately, there is no believing that this was their last encounter with Snoke. The first of many, in all likelihood, both internal and external. For all the limitations faced by the Dark Side, it certainly hasn't done anything to temper his reach. ]
We need to warn your mother. If he can find us here, he's likely already sent soldiers to find the rest of the Resistance as well.
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That he brought Snoke to her after she entrusted this task to him, after she took a risk in letting him out of the command shuttle to offer him this balm; that she looked into him and took a chance on what might not have been there after seeing Kylo cut down Han Solo for daring to suggest the same; that he doubted her ability to reject the darkness, filtered through time and space and the heavy veil of their joined minds or otherwise, and couldn't be sure whether or not he needed to hold her at bay in an effort to evade off a potential attack. The trust between them is tumultuous and practically non-existent, stands on ground rockier than the explosions had no doubt left their construct of Ilum, but for some reason it exists all the same. Inherently, standing across from her with dried sweat on his brow and the taste of vomit still in his mouth, with dirt smeared high on her forehead and the red rush of warm blood back to the surface of her skin, he knows that this is just the beginning.
Exhaustion pours into his veins and stretches long limbs behind his eyelids, bringing a burn not unlike the one that had worked its way up the back of his throat when he closes his eyes briefly against the sunlight. Thumb and forefinger press into the paper thin skin that creases there, and colors explode like fireworks in the darkness of his vision as attempts to work the ache beginning deep in his skull out that way. It isn't clear to him whether or not he's the source of the dull sensations of a blooming headache or if it's Rey - likewise with the imminent threat of exhaustion. He opens his eyes again and she fills his view of the world. )
He knows where to look. Hux will have informed him by now. The First Order won't risk attacking again until the rest of our fleet is ready to mobilize. With the Corellians withdrawing their support by going back on the arrangement made regarding the militarized ships, not to mention attacking us alongside Resistance forces, and with the winds still as strong as they are, the Supreme Leader - and Hux - will advise against immediate retaliation, at least until they're sure they'll win the fight. ( It feels inherently wrong to be speaking against the Order, and it's something he will have to examine at length for himself once he has the benefit of being alone, should that occasion arise. In the Resistance camp, he seriously doubts it. The fact remains that his assistance to the Resistance in any capacity is now beneficial to him as well: Kylo Ren is a fugitive, regardless of his end game, whatever he determines that to be, and if they leave the planet and escape the First Order with him in their possession, he escapes judgment as well. For now. ) They may blockade the planet. Whatever ships are left following the assault will likely remain close by to either wait for reinforcements to arrive and lay siege or relay information to Hux regarding the direction the Resistance goes once they leave Corellia. Everything the Resistance does needs to be done quickly and quietly.
( He has a distinct distaste for military strategy. That's always been Hux's area of both expertise and arousal. But the benefit of having had to listen to the man for years following his appointment from the naval academy means that Kylo has a unique perspective on his strategies and ways of thinking. It's clear what use he could be to the Resistance, and he gets the impression that it's as he mentioned to Rey once before: trading one leash for another. He starts to sweat where his hair crowds the column of his throat and the nape of his neck, and he passes his hand underneath it to wipe some of it away. )
How do we get out of here?
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But that's not the question he's asking her, at least not out loud, where he should go when they do return. Dropping her gaze briefly, she accepts the simplicity of his request and turns to glance back the way they had come, where the would-be Jedi school had been replaced with endless stretches of forest. ]
We can't go back. [ There's no place to return to, no journey to retread the ground they walked before the encounter with Snoke had thrust the landscape out of the sinking dark. Only forward. ] Whatever way we find, when we do get out, everything will be different.
[ Not because the physical landscape will have changed, not because of any overt differences, but because Kylo Ren has. Because in experiencing and understanding how the darkness took its hold in him, so too has Rey. If balance is ultimately the goal, and based on Luke's teachings, she has concluded that it is—even if not by his definition—then she must accept that balancing those scales of the Force also means seeing through this complementary connection she has with Kylo Ren; every time the scales tip for one of them, the other experiences a mirror. ]
What is it about this place that calms you? Focus on that, re-center yourself, and the path will reveal itself. [ She hopes. ]
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Where will he go? What will he do? It seems an impossibility to consider that far ahead now, with the trees overhead and the sharp tang of acid still on his tongue, the bones in his fingers beginning to ache where he gripped Rey tight enough to mark. He knows that when she says they can't go back there's more to it than just surface value, than just the echo of a ruined future on the steps of Skywalker's academy lost through the branches and thorn bushes, more than just the seared image of a Corellian smuggler touching calloused fingertips to his cheek before slipping away, but like the four and eight and sixteen steps that he will have to take to bring him, to bring them, to whatever the next landmark might be, it's all uncertain after this forest.
Whatever exists and remains between them, growing and changing and spanning galaxies and star systems, it leaves them staring in the same direction, as much as it leaves them staring at each other, underneath the canopy of Yavin IV's treetops. It's like a constant nudge in the back of his mind, a physical presence that would slip through his hands like fine silk, like sand, if he were to reach out and grab for it. Thoughts of the Order and Hux's military tactics fall away in the wake of it, the entirety of his perception making room for the notion that presents to him. Calm himself, refocus, as if those things are now easier to do than when he had initially settled himself on the floor across from her. )
It's quiet. ( It's the first thing that comes to his mind, removing his hand from the back of his neck and pushing his hair off of his forehead. It sticks up in strange cowlicks in some places and plasters to his skull in others. Kylo can't say with absolute honesty that this is the first time that he's experienced actual silence in his life, because it isn't silence, not with her in his mind as well, not to mention the two sides that have always pulled at him waiting in the shadows for their chance to surge. But there's no Snoke. Not even an echo. And that is silence. ) We were never here together for long stretches of time, but when we were, it was quiet.
( He remembers running and screaming through the courtyard - or maybe he doesn't; maybe it's one of those imagined memories to substitute the forgotten reality that was less idealistic and kind - through the forest. His mother's strong arms underneath him as knees and elbows twined around her when she picked him up. Solo's steady shoulders rising him heads above the crowd when all he could see were the backs of legs and holsters, taller even than Chewbacca, who slipped chocolate into his hand when his mother's back was turned. It wasn't silent then, it's never been silent, but it was better, as better as it is in this moment, and he knows where to go without having to even look up from his boots in the grass. Rey's elbow is suddenly under the tap of his palm and then gone as he draws his hand back and leads them through the underbrush, through miles of forest floor until the dirt turns to pebbles turns to sand.
Back at the beginning. )
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Rey shuts her eyes and listens to the breathing of the forest while he reflects, focusing on that word. The forest has never felt quiet to Rey, not compared to Jakku; she grew up understanding quiet, looking to it as a friend and constant companion, the only sounds were those that she made and the unpredictable, inconsistent dust storms that buffeted the hollow shell of her shelter (for it was only ever shelter, never a home).
But here, where it's green, and the planet is alive with sounds, she cannot imagine calling it quiet. The trees rustle together. The soil sighs and crunches with branches and leaves under her feet. Small animals—birds, insects, rodents—all scurry in the brush where comfort and food can be found, and none of it is quiet. But it is peaceful, which Rey thinks is a much better alternative.
His hand on her elbow opens her eyes, and she follows his guidance without complaint through the winding path, quiet in her hike and never letting her breath turn uneven or hitched until she sees the first sloping pile of sand stretching out before their eyes.
She wonders if it's a sign that he wishes he could go back, or if it's simply what Jakku has always been—a liminal space. People coming and going, traders and scavengers. Full of waiting and transitioning and not much else. Sometimes, she thinks she hates this place, that she'd be glad to never go there again now that she's freed herself of its weight, but she keeps coming back, one way or the other. ]
Wake up, Ren. [ Rey's mouth moves around the words, but when they are repeated, it seems like they're poorly subtitled over her lips. ] Ben, it's time to wake up.
[ Leia's voice. Not Rey's.
Rey's eyes open and Luke stands back as Leia stirs them, the valley between her and Kylo Ren in that tiny room suddenly enormous compared to the closeness they'd had throughout the journey in his mind, her mind, their minds. She unfolds her legs quickly and pushes to her feet. They do not have time for reflection. ]
Snoke knows. But Kylo Ren believes we have time on our side. [ She turns to him, waits for him to be the one to offer that guidance, to make the choice to help not just Rey, but the Resistance. ]
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He is slower to move, slower to unwind himself and rise. Sweat has cooled down the length of his spine and soaked into the flight suit that he wears underneath the armor. It has seeped into the line of his hair at the back of his neck and crowded the high cowl so that it sticks unpleasantly to him when he turns his head to follow Rey's trajectory. His mouth is dry, and the conditioned, lingering anger of hearing his name spoken aloud coils low in his belly like a simmering flame even though it does not ignite. Kylo gets the impression that he'll hear it a great deal whether he wants to or not, despite the fact that Ben Solo really is gone. Organa touches his arm to encourage him to stand, and he feels it all the way down to the bone as he shrugs her off and twists himself out of the pretzel he's made of his legs to stand.
Everyone is staring at him. It isn't a foreign feeling, although he is more familiar with people pointedly avoiding looking at him directly for the most part. Hux makes it a point to maintain eye contact as if it will prove something, and Snoke has never had any scruples regarding direct eye contact with anyone. This is different, though. There is a level of expectation that he is unused to for its purpose alone and his role in that purpose. Divulging information to Rey under the umbrella of their joined minds had been easier than this, but a chasm has opened between them to allow everyone else to fill it, and now he finds himself tense and feeling caged. A prisoner again. )
If you want to stand a chance against retaliation, which will come as soon as the winds die down and make travel possible without being suicidal, then you need to mobilize your forces and find a way off of the planet without drawing too much attention. ( His voice fills the room with a certain amount of derision. Whatever conclusions he came to during their walk, there is still a long way to go out here in reality. ) Your military tactics have not afforded you a great many victories in the past, so I suggest doing something outside of your normal routine. ( He can feel Skywalker circling him like a hawk from the outer ring of the group, but Kylo mostly keeps his attention divided between Rey's face and the General's, equally split between looking her in the eye directly as if challenging her to argue with him and at a point on the wall behind her. ) Decoys, maybe. Some deception.
( Organa asks the questions that they're all probably thinking, and he's not at all surprised to receive it. She doesn't look at him with kindness or any lingering affection the way that he could so easily recall within his own head, no softness around the mouth or eyes the way she had afforded it to him when he was brought to her. Somewhere deep down, in a way that he is not expecting, it stings him. They are enemies, though, and she wants to know, as she voices aloud: Why should we trust you? Kylo answers her faster than even he is expecting. )
The Supreme Leader knows what's happened here. Regardless of what happens in the future, I've betrayed him now. I've betrayed the Order. Lying to you, leading you into a trap by encouraging you to leave the planet before Order forces have time to reassemble and blockade Corellia, it would only bring the logical response to that betrayal down on me sooner. ( Dark eyes catch Skywalker moving forward and hold on him. ) We can benefit each other.
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It makes sense, then, when Kylo Ren couches it as merely transactional, tactical aid for protection, his own self preservation reasoning his way onto their side for the time being, but Rey steps up beside him all the same, one hand briefly touching his elbow as if to make an offer of guidance on her own part now. ]
I believe him. [ She interjects with heartfelt naiveté, and the faith thick in her voice sings like a distant cousin of trust. ] Snoke was there; I saw him. Which means he's seen us. You only have a short time to act on the intelligence we've been able to gather and anticipate the blockade. Because a blockade will come—it is only a matter of when.
[ For the most part, Luke sequesters himself from the discussion, listening rather than weighing in. This is General Organa's place, at the helm of an army; Luke is of a different breed, not born or bred for the tides of war. Rey knows because she is the same.
But with Rey's opinion registered, he joins in, stopping his tracks and facing down both fledgling Force-users to ask, And for your part? Will you join us in evacuating, or remain to face the wrath of the leader you betrayed?
A scoff was out of Rey's mouth before she could help it. Registering it, she flushed with brief apology, but never let 'sorry' move past her lips, knowing it would be disingenuous. ]
You can't be serious.
[ Leia offers a strained look of sympathy to Rey, one that claims to understand her position all too well, though Rey isn't convinced of it. Instead of agreeing with her indignation, she chides, We need to be sure. Even if we assume the bond is severed … ]
You think Snoke will use him as a spy?
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The suggestion of Skywalker's presence approaches his mind yet again but Rey is speaking before Kylo has the option of pushing the argument further, drawing him into the conversation in a way that he cannot simply just be absent from. The feeling of him at the edge of Kylo's mind falls away as he turns all his focus and attention on the girl at his side. Even so, his uncle's power burns like a roaring fire out of all of them, next to the candle of his own ability. Rey roars bright as well, like a supernova, and Kylo has the decency to feel embarrassed under the encroaching heat of her faith in him, whether unknowingly misplaced or otherwise, though for the most part his face remains impassive, neutral, until Skywalker accuses him of exactly everything he deserves to be accused of. His lip curls in half a snarl, ready to flay the older man, but Rey beats him to the punch in a way he is decidedly not expecting.
He refuses to look at her as she staunchly defends him to the two people in the galaxy who have the supreme right to have him drawn and quartered, and he doesn't know how he feels about that so he looks at Organa and settles into a comfortable simmer while he investigates the lines on her face, how old she's become in the last twenty years. It's only when Rey begins speaking about him as if he isn't standing a foot away from her that he pushes his way back into the conversation with all the subtlety and grace of a battering ram. )
I wouldn't have agreed to your experiment if that were the case.
( The tone he uses finds no home for or comfort in the sympathetic look that Organa doles out for Rey's sake. If anything, it feeds off of it and clips his words short, agitated. He wants to yell. He wants to call his saber back to his side and lash out at everything around him with the weight of all that has transpired in this tiny little room. Kylo feels it prickling under his skin and knows, in that moment, that no matter how far and distant he is from the Supreme Leader's reach or influence, these trends toward dark violence will always be there, will always be a part of him no matter where he goes or who he fights for. But when Organa diverts her attention from the girl next to him to settle on him once more, there is something underneath the steel and mettle in her gaze that gives her all away and makes him feel about eight-years-old.
It's being on the bridge with his father twenty times, each with increased violence and desperation, that clawing, aching despair that had gutted him unexpectedly. Coupled with Rey's steadfast, determined need to defend him, her admittedly naive but not unfounded or incorrect faith that what they had done hadn't been in vain, and the distinct disbelief that she not only expresses but floods their connection with in the most precise way that he has felt since they returned - he calms himself. )
Snoke wouldn't suffer such an act of betrayal just for the benefit of having a spy within your ranks. He would never want me so close to the two of you without being able to have his own direct channel of influence. And as Rey can attest, whatever connection there was between myself and the Supreme Leader has been eliminated. No more direct channels. If you don't want to hinge your evacuation on me, then hinge it on someone you've already established you can trust. I have no intention of dying today. ( He answers Skywalker's question without looking at the man. ) Just as I'm sure you have no intention of losing the meat and potatoes of your fleet to Snoke's inevitable retaliation.
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He must, she decides. It must be that desire that led him to allow their experiment in the first place, and he must be relieved that it worked. Regardless of whatever other emotions cloud and conflict the reaction. ]
Doubt and paranoia are the weapons of the Dark Side, Master. [ Her soft appeal comes after they all take a handful of quiet moments to process and weigh Ren’s claims. ] They might plague us, but we can’t court them or they’ll take root.
[ That lesson, she learned well in the tar pits of Kylo Ren’s mind, if not from the lecturing of her teacher. Were the circumstances less dire, she might be able to find humor in the notion that he had been the one to instruct her in the ways of the Force after all, in a roundabout sense. ]
If we ignore his warning, the First Order could see that we never leave this planet. The Resistance could die here.
[ Her appeal smoothes the rough edges of Kylo Ren’s pragmatism into an unfortunate truth that they all need to swallow if they are to survive. Leia raises a hand from her hip to stay her insistence, processing the heavy weight, then waves it to dismiss them and paces to the wall where she folds her arms and waits for Luke to join her in quiet discussion. Luke’s voice is tense as he thanks Rey, a deliberate omission of his nephew’s part given the way he then holds Kylo Ren’s hard stare with something muddled with sore guilt. Like Leia, he turns away in kind and joins her in whispering.
Turning to her counterpart, Rey nods for him to move with her for the exit. ]
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The only thing that competes with it is the sound of Rey's voice cutting the weighted stillness in the room, filling it up to the walls and ceiling and washing away some of the misgiving that had settled in following the sound of his own low tones and the harsh sharpness of his tongue. She soothes the sting of the balm that he tries to apply to the wounds that have been raised as best she can, trying to appease and impart with the knowledge that she has gleaned in ways that he can't. It leaves him dumbfounded, in a way, which is not a feeling he's overly familiar with, enough that he has to stare hard at the back of her head when she steps in front of him a little.
Or, rooted more firmly in reality, when he steps back once Organa raises a hand toward the both of them, shifting from the balls of his feet to his heels and rearranging long limbs in a way that makes him both shrink away while managing to loom large at the same time. Kylo only finishes extending himself to his full height - so considerable in such a small room, surrounded by such small people - when Organa signals their dismissal, which leaves him both relieved that he won't be subject to her scrutiny and irritated that she feels he's dismissible at all. His uncle catches him mid-motion and Kylo arrests himself in the act of bringing his arms behind his back to grip one wrist with the flat, wide palm of another, so much so that he straightens to military attention as if daring the other man to say anything about anything in the process.
He thanks Rey, but not Kylo, and it does not go unnoticed, Kylo's fingers tightening around the bones in his wrist and his jaw tensing as he chooses to ignore the alleged guilt in Skywalker's eyes and see instead cautious reproach. Wasted potential. That stings, too, but not perceptibly enough for it to be noticeable. He's glad for it when Rey looks up at him and nods, and he begins stuffing his gloves into a pocket as she motions him to follow her out of the room, never more glad than he is in that moment to be away from two people. His hand finds his hair when they exit the room, and he scrubs through it hard enough to tangle. )
Now what? ( There's a certain amount of derision in his voice that is perhaps unfairly directed at her, but his muscles are jumping off of his bones and twitchy, crackling energy rolls off of him in waves. Something in the atrium they step into makes a distinct crunching sound as metal collapses in on itself, and he tosses a glance back over his shoulder at the rusting door to a fuse box, which has crumbled like a tin can. The look he levels at Rey tries to be apologetic, but it gets lost halfway there and leaves him looking sour instead. ) After such a charming reunion, I assume you'll lock me back in the shuttle.
( Certainly not for the first time and definitely not for the last, he wonders where his saber has gone to. Not with any intention of using it in the present moment, but with the sort of longing that children miss lights when they are finally turned off in the night. )
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She knows he is already bracing himself for the confines of the makeshift airlock cell before he asks, just like she knows that's sweat he's shaking out of his hair, and she finds herself oddly calm in how she feels just as aware of his movements and particularities as she is of her own.
Rey stops in front of him with his question, glancing pointedly at the metal he has crushed in an uncontrolled fit with careful assessment before she takes the time to answer. Skywalker's measured patience counts in her silent beats. Then, she looks back at him, eyes muddled with two parts confusion and one part understanding. ]
It wasn't my idea to put you there in the first place. [ For some reason, that seems like the most important thing to establish—she wants him to understand that if she had her way, it would have been a different conversation. She can't be sure how. Maybe that's why it wasn't her decision. But it seemed just as inhumane as how the First Order had held her, and vengeance tasted bitter and turned to ash in her mouth, unsatisfying and short-lived. ] And no one has ordered me to return you to it, so unless you know something I don't, and have reason to believe that I need to…
[ Which is to say, she wants him to make that call. As far as Rey is concerned, he's free to walk out of this camp now. All said and done, he offered them precisely what they needed, and he submitted himself to make sure he would no longer be a weapon for Snoke to wield. If he found his path in the middle, away from this war, it would be for him to decide; she hopes he won't, of course, hopes that he sees in their future the same vision that he'd shared with her on Yaga Minor, but changed now, guided by their own minds and no one else's. But she can't force him to. ]
I told you that you would need to decide your path forward for yourself. If you ask me, the best place to find that path is here, with the Resistance, and I believe you owe it to the people you've hurt to help them clean up this mess. But what I believe doesn't really matter. The question is what do you believe? Do you believe you belong in a cage?
[ It's hard to tell if she means it. If when he makes his choice, she would truly honor it and let him walk away, or if this is some elaborate scheme to manipulate him into the choice she wants and to make it feel like his choice. However, it's hard to imagine the open gentleness of her eyes could be anything but real, and she does have the keen advantage of a Force bond equipped to (hopefully) warn her if he would truly try to decimate the camp now. Perhaps, against all odds, she really is that willing to exercise her understanding as forgiveness. ]
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Or. Plan C.
Rey opens her mouth and some sound comes out of it, leveling questions at him that he feels ill-equipped to answer and even less prepared for, despite the fact that these are conversations that he knew were coming, even back on the command shuttle, when he paced the opposite side of the glass like a caged animal. They remain much the same now, separate and apart but still connected, joined. The less people are around to distract him from it, the more keenly Kylo feels it just existing. It eerily and soundly covers the wound that Snoke's presence had left in him when it was torn away like pouring cool water over a burn, and it buzzes with a potential that he had not recognized or felt in conjunction with the Supreme Leader or any of the other Knights who were Force sensitive.
He tries to use it, to suss out her intentions, unable to trust her completely the same way that she finds reason to doubt her faith in him. Despite their ability to look into one another and see what's there beyond the scope of an outsider's reach, Kylo gets the impression that these hesitations will never evaporate between them, that they will just continue to change and evolve until they are old habits, dying hard and noisily in the wake of the choices that they make. For her part - and his - Kylo likes to think that he can see a little of who she is without having to dip both feet and wade into the high tower of her mind to figure it out; he likes to think that the bare, open look of her eyes is authentic. It matches her defense of him and rides high with what he already knows of her: steadfast, true, too brave and stubborn for her own good.
They know one another; it would be imprudent to lie to her when he never has. It would be just as rash to betray her. What that means for him, he doesn't know, and it doesn't matter anyway. )
You and I have serious differences in perspectives on what the Resistance means and what it can achieve. ( Kylo keeps the confrontational qualities of his tone at bay. Not an easy task but with the door to the fuse box hanging by a single hinge, he feels a measure more calm than he had moments prior. He has no response for the lives that he has taken and the people that he has hurt, which she levels against him without slinging mud but that doesn't mean that he can't feel the weight behind the very justified charge against him. It also doesn't mean that he feels remorse for it. Not now. Not yet. ) I think there are more than enough people in your camp that would say I should stay behind bars, who won't exactly be comfortable with the idea of me walking around among them. It might not have been your idea to imprison me in the first place, but all that means is that it won't be you who decides to keep it from happening again. Whatever path I choose or don't choose, it doesn't matter right now. ( He smirks at her. ) Creature in a mask, remember?
( Where will he even go? What will he even do? In the company of the First Order, he commanded a guard; he wasn't assigned to one. It's ludicrous to think that he will be afforded an even slightly similar luxury among the ranks of the Resistance, but he can't adequately picture himself anywhere else either. Whether that's a bid in desperation and self-preservation or an actual inclination and desire, he can't be sure. Not this early in the game. Not this close to the end of all that he knew. It plagues him with doubt, with uncertainty, an island battered by storms that have worn it down over years and decades. Kylo knows better than anyone where that goes, and he knows better than anyone that it will take him nowhere he wants to be right now. As conflicted as he constantly is, he knows that he doesn't want to die. So he casts out a line and takes a step toward her, brushing up against her presences at the very edges even though enough distance remains between them physically to be cordial. He finds a grip there and holds. )
I know I believe that Snoke needs to die. ( His voice stays low. A couple of techs chatter close by, giving them a wide berth but keeping their heads down, eager not to miss anything to gossip about. ) I don't believe that the Resistance can do it on its own merit, just as I don't believe they can take back the ground they've lost with him still at the helm of the Order. I don't believe that I can kill him myself. I don't believe that you or Skywalker can. I don't know if I believe any of us will succeed, but I think I have a better chance straddling the line than being a slave to either side. I can't walk the path that you walk or the one that you want me to walk, but I think it would be unwise to walk away.
( So, plan C. )
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It's unnerving, to see and process the vast and appropriate physical space between them but to feel as if they are wrapped up in one another all the same, the link humming and active like a live wire shedding active sparks. She can sense his conflict, his resolve, but most of all, she can register and respect his pragmatism, which speaks to a primal survival urge that kept her going on Jakku for so long. ]
Cut off the head. [ She nods briefly, a clear approval of the method, however undeveloped the plan is for now. And for a moment, even as he decries their chances, Rey firmly believes them to be capable. If they have hope for even half of what that vision on Yaga Minor had shown, then she must believe it.
That moment, the resolve with which she accepts that one way or another, they will have to kill Snoke—there is no strained but heartfelt way to reach out and find the humanity inside of him. What she felt in Kylo Ren's mind is no longer human—grows and springs into another sort of resolve, that of a decision finally settled. ]
We can't kill anyone if they put an embargo on the planet. And you're right, no one on this base would want you to bunk with them, even if you hadn't personally tortured at least two in immediate memory. [ She turns quickly and begins to lead him out of the atrium, her movements lifting the heads of nearby observers only for a moment before she breezes out into the camp proper, leading him for the treeline. ] But there is a place you can stay, one that should be able to get us out of here no matter what they surround the planet with.
[ After all, the kessel run wasn't a matter of speed and earnest, but a matter of cutting close corners and dodging obstacles to shorten the distance of it. What better ship to sneak past an armada than a smuggler's? Through the trees, they move past the camp, where a clearing has obviously been created by the unceremonious landing of the Millennium Falcon. ]
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Before he has a chance to reply, she is turning on her foot and leading him away from the area, so that he has to lengthen his strides in order to rejoin her and then shorten them again in order not to lumber past her. Her comment doesn't sting, even as the warmth the flexes through their connection wanes on his end to be replaced with something more natural, an apex predator calm and weary but still on the lookout as they step into the burning gray of the Corellian sky. He never lets his guard down in the company of wolves, especially wolves that he has systematically hunted down and destroyed over the years. Not for the last time, he knows, Kylo wonders where that traitor stormtrooper is, where Dameron is, the lot of them moving in circular patterns, weaving in and out of each other's lives. )
Where are we going?
( Kylo asks her once they are beyond the belly of the camp and moving quickly to its outer limbs, winding under grounded ships and hastily assembled camps that will have to be cleared by afternoon if the general hopes to get her people out alive. Corellian high winds have no set pattern and deviate from prediction quite often. The first chance they get to break atmosphere should be taken, but he's only thinking of that vaguely as he catches sight of a pilot emerging from her tent as Rey strides past only to fix him with a scowl that he returns with a dark but blank look on his way to the treeline. No bunks here or anywhere, he assumes, wondering what retaliation Rey will endure for her part in all of this and finding himself somewhat surprised to be considering it at all.
As for his question, he doesn't have to wait long for a response. The trees thin abruptly, having been crushed by the underside of a very familiar YT model freighter, side cockpit looking as scarred and battered as it always has, scorch marks and carbon scoring painting the thing different shades of white, gray, and black. Kylo stands so still at the edge of the clearing that his boots begin to sink into the mud under the heavy weight that seems to press down on his shoulders, all the way into his heels. He knows every corridor and compartment on that ship, knows the frequency by heart and speaks smuggler's cant like a second language. Every hair on the back of his neck stands on end, and he holds himself unnecessarily rigid. )
Still a piece of garbage.
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This piece of garbage might save your life. Watch it. [ Her grousing sings in the wake of her moody hike up the ramp, the thud of her boots echoing through the rickety metal frame.
It’s impossible to ignore the bitter metal taste in her mouth that tells her inviting him into this space is a bad decision, is wrong. This was Han Solo’s space, and Kylo Ren killed him. He didn’t deserve to walk the halls of his father’s ship. But if any of this were about deserving, then they wouldn’t have made the strides they already have, and pulling him back from the dark would have been impossible.
He did not have to deserve mercy for it to be given. In fact, if he did, it would not be mercy at all.
She didn’t pause to wait for him, though. Allowing him in here didn’t have to mean welcoming him. Instead, she blazed around the corner of one of the tube-like hallways circling the freighter, looping around to the cramped crew quarters with functional, weak-framed bunks of narrow width tucked into individual closets that sprawled like honeycombs off a central pod on the ship’s port side.
Fur litters the disheveled sheets of one bunk, caught also in the thin joint of panels in the walls identifying the room as Chewbacca’s. Across from it, a small, crudely made doll imitates an X-wing pilot in an orange jumpsuit with a helmet, fashioned wholly of cotton and linen packed together, held together at the joints with thick twine.
She stops in front of the third, lingering near the narrow frame of the door in silent offering. Finn stayed in it last, but it’s not precisely his. To the contrary, he found his place among the other Resistance troops. ]
If General Organa doesn’t move the troops in time, we can load the Falcon up and get past their barricades. [ She doesn’t let the disclaimer I hope come out aloud. Better to sound sure that she can do it. ] In the meantime, you can rest here.
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literally have no idea what i am talking about la la la mechanics
Me always with Star Wars worldbuilding tbh so I feel you. Consumes EU at a glacial pace.
hahahha likewise. i just have multiple wookiepedia tabs open constantly
sobs i'm so bad at retaining reference material, but i just read 5 pages about sabacc and i'm like y
i am so proud of you. i never retain any information. i literally looked up 'glass' the other day
ok but like how much sleep had you gotten i feel like that is an important fact to consider
i mean probably like 7 which is 7 more than i usually get
oh .............. look i tried to excuse it idk what you want from me
and then i slept for like nine hours anyway it's fine you are forgiven
After this tag I know way too much about start wars spacecraft
hahahah totally applicable to every day situations absolutely
i'm so ready for the GRE question about quadex cores
my friend said he kylo ren told him quadex core questions are definitely on the GRE
truly a credible source
you can cite him your thesis
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/quietly hides my massive knights of ren boner
no get that back out hoW DO YOU EVEN FIND THESE THINGS
i stared FOREVER at the vision scene. and used lots of name generators. IDK MAKING THIS UP AS I GO
you are truly a hero to your people
more valuable skillsets for the real world
um it's super valuable ok you can write baby naming books and win staring contests
omg an untapped goldmine awaits!!!!!
now you're thinking like a murrican
drinking my miller light and eating my corn dogs
waves an american flag
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i know so much about dejarik now
scholar goals
/turns it into a thesis
academic applause
much more useful than my first class of the day that's for sure
filed under things i don't miss about school: useless classes
ugh it is the most useless class. love in world lit. you think it would be interesting. no.
oh my god my world lit class was the worst too it's a curse of bad professors
oh my god my professor is THE WORST i'm so glad it's not just me
it's totally a curse i had this white guy who would tell my poc classmates how racism felt
WOW DUDE WHAT. what is this guy doing teaching people
*~*~higher education*~*~
suddenly my teacher doesn't seem so terrible
some professors just need to stop
/ejects them into space
somewhere in this tag i changed tense and i'm too lazy to find them all this late. my gift 2 u
hahahah my gift to you was passing out so maybe we can be even
Haphazardly squeezes tags in at work
yes. good. i mean no. don't. stop. think of the children
They barely need me ok
well okay then i suppose it's alright
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do it rey put him in the closet pls
locks him in the millennium falcon bunks same diff
good job on your hoth comment, self. never reply to anything when you first wake up
LMAO I THOUGHT THAT WAS ON PURPOSE my b
YOUR RESPONSE WAS PERFECT /discreetly tags while in class la la la
Sameeeee
terrible people, the both of us
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/gets 100% distracted rewatching tfa again
Waits for the DVD like Fry's dog. So close. And so close to high res icons
ugh i want it so bad just for the iconnnnssss whyyyyy isn't it april 5th
2 more weeks so close
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reads about mandalore forever do do dooooo
Oops gives you homework. I should do that too probably because all I have rn is Boba Fett
hahah me too, basically. boba fett is the whole planet right? it's fine
it is in fact shaped like his helmet
hahahahah well now i'm just sad that's not true
anything can be true if you close your eyes and believe
i will just wizard of oz red shoes it into a reality
things i've learned about mandalore: everything is named variations of mandalore
they are a proud people full of proud mandalorian pride
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